Always trying
 

Am always saying that I'm going to stop drinking but it never actually happens. I'm tired of always lying to myself but I always fall back into temptation with drinking. I hate it

Welcome xbee14x, you will find tons of support here. Glad you have joined us. :)

Welcome to SR, xbee14x. It's a great source of help and support. If you really want to quit you can do it. What is your plan?

:welcome to SR! I'm glad you found us and joined the family. Lots of support here.:)

Welcome Bee! Lots of support to be found here. Do you have a plan for stopping this time?

it was only until a specialist told me the other day that its pointless sorting out my demons in my head because i'd be dead soon from drinking that it suddenly dawned on me that i had an issue. my (soon to be ex) wife has nagged and my kids have moaned but the harsh reality of life and death is a SOBERING thought

You've already taken a step by joining and posting here, Bee. You'll find a huge amount of wisdom, support and experience here :hug:

Thank you all for the support, it's greatly appreciated. But I honestly don't have a plan. I'm just saying im going to stop. And I wanna do it for my son and boyfriend(my sons father). We've been threw soooo much all because of the way I can get when I drink and it's tearing our relationship apart and I don't want that. That's why I know I need to stop. But as soon as I get paid I forget it and go back into buying more alcohol. But this time I wanna mean it and when I actually get paid. I stay strong and waste my money on things for my family and myself. Not all in alcohol.

Hi. Support is great however your the one that needs to get off the merry-go-round with action and that starts with not picking up the first drink/drug even if your azz falls off. Years ago when that was told to me I didn't like it and continued on my painful way of looking for a softer easier way which didn't work until I got completely honest about MY drinking, not the boss, wife, weather, football game and all the other BS reasons we drink. I needed to want to be sober more than I wanted to drink. With a lot of work most of the promises of sobriety have been delivered to me. BE WELL

You are absolutely right! Right now I wanna be more sober than anything and I am right now but then something occurs and I always fall back. But I think by finding this website. It's given me an insight that I'm not alone.

I would suggest that you try not to recover alone. Perhaps join AA or some other live support group?

Welcome!

to some people it's semantics, but things like this make a huge difference for me...rather than saying I am going to stop, I had to say "I'm done drinking", so the stopping part was in the past, and I got busy living sober. Even the not pleasant physical withdrawal part WAS part of living sober. So it was all forward momentum.

It really changed how I think when I got more careful about my words.