13unluckyforsom

I'm ok thanks - I can do this - 1st of October new month new beginning. I'm pulling the plug on my pity it serves me no purpose. Time to grow up.

mecanix

Morning 13 ,
nice to see you postin'

m

13unluckyforsom

Thanks M

lorelei

Sobertober will be your month 13 ((())) xx

GracieLou

LOL, That is funny! I love it

afloatsober

When you get sober, and you will because you want it, you will be a tower of strength to those that come after you.
Get well 13.
Gx

ImperfectlyMe

I just mentioned this in another thread but I will say again, You don't want to die you just don't want to hurt anymore!!!!!

Lets get you a concrete plan together. First a full physical. Suicidal ideation and impeding doom depression needs treating. You are worth so much more then you're giving yourself.

When I was a drunk momma I use to always say it'd be so much better if I was dead. That was a bigger lie then telling myself I didn't have a drinking problem.

But the first and only step to getting better was to say goidbye FOREVER to alcohol. I love you posts and your dry humor reminds me of myself . You can do this TODAY. We all want to help you now you have to help you! PM me anytime friend hug

foolsgold66

It's good to see you. I have a selfish reason to give, I enjoy your posts. I want to see them every day, sober and funny, and healthy. We care. Be well. You can do it.

13unluckyforsom

You are all very kind thanks for the words of hope and encouragement.

When I drink I get relief for a while - it doesn't last because I have to drink beyond that level - I can't stop once I start and then I live off the anxious energy all of the next day but it frazzles me and so the vicious circle begins again. I don't need to explain this - you guys get this.

I have an appointment sometime this month to speak to someone - i have so many things hanging over me that I need to bite the bullet and address as well - phone calls to make and payments to sort out but when I'm drinking I bury my head in the sand and I don't feel like being responsible and taking charge. I dwell in my self pity - I'm so good at being miserable lol but I'm also so good at being happy and I can see the beauty in so much of life if I just wipe the **** out my eyes and allow myself. I have to accept my life on life's terms - it's ok to want more in life - ambition is healthy but I've turned it into 'why me' or 'why not me' and that's just vile. I can't be bothered indulging the 2year old inside my head stamping her feet anymore. Nobody wants her at the party lol anyway - rambling a bit but the point is that I don't want to die - that's just stupid I just don't want to live as a slave to alcohol or my anxiety. No one is going to do this for me - my abracadabra moment isn't going to just happen to me. I need a plan. I think I'm going to take what I need from any source of help I can find. I need to invest some time on myself - if I put in half the effort that I do to drink to stop I'll be doing swimmingly lol

jkb

Hi 13-
Wishing you all the very best. I KNOW you can do this. Your in a tough spot but, as you know it gets better.

Jess

trikyriky

I do hope things get better for you

Truly , TR