goose333

I'm starting day 12 and one thing I'm really happy about is that my mind is in such better shape than two weeks ago. Aside from being really alert and clear I find that I am much more confident and have a much higher level of self esteem. That's a good reason not to go back!

Goose

lorelei

hey goose day 12 here too, well done
don't know about you, but I feel a lot more human, things are more 'real' and I feel more like me before everything started to change?!

heath480

Congratulations on day 12.

Tides

Hi Goose:

First, congratulations on Day 12! I am (almost) right there with you (11).

Second, because I was thinking about writing a similar post this morning, I want to echo what you said regarding changes in outlook without alcohol. Although quitting does not change everything around us or within ourselves, it can indeed change the perception we have about the world around us and how we view ourselves.

My mind two weeks ago (while still drinking heavily):
- Anxious
- Fearful
- Worried that everyone was disappointed in me
- Terrified of my shortcomings
- Slightly paranoid
- Emotionally and sometimes physically paralyzed

Now:
- Less anxious
- Not fearful of what I can't control
- Recognizing that there are usually at least two sides of every street, and that I don't beat people up as hard as I (previously) expected them to do to me
- Recognizing that we're all imperfect. I usually do my best, go above and beyond, but that won't fix others
- Still slightly paranoid, but not because of alcohol :P
- "Just do it"

I still have *tons* of stuff to work on. I still have many imperfections. But, I'm fighting it, trying to turn it around, and not having the built-in avoidance caused by alcohol has helped.

Thanks for posting. And let's try to keep up the good work!

Nuudawn

Ya know..in the beginning I think I started to drink to shut my bloody mind up. In the end, it was my mind I desperately wanted to salvage, befriend and understand.