breath

Obsession is the tool of addiction chipping away at the recovery; dump it out! I remember my early days, the fear and obsession would not let the real me out; I thought I was bored but once I was over the "hump" I realized all I was missing; I took my life from the clutches of addiction and am now in grateful recovery; and one busy sober dude!

AlefVavResh

Being honest is a good start

Keeping it out of the house will protect you from yourself. . . When you are tempted to buy, think about how you feel right now.

phoebe64

If I had a bottle in my home last night, I would have had it too. Thankfully I did not have any, and I skipped going out to the store for food, just to avoid temptation to buy it. But I am far from having any of this mastered. I just understand where you were and how you felt last night.

My drinking escalated when my kids were young and I was often alone with them while my husband traveled for a week or more at a time. It is a very hard time. I wish I could rewind and do it differently, but it is done. My health has suffered, and I have regrets. My kids are ok, still pretty young and naive to the drinking I did, but now old enough to start noticing. More incentive to stop.

Ont thing that helped me to be sober sometimes, when the kids were young and i was alone, was to think ahead to if they might be sick in the night or have an emergency. I would need my wits about me. Maybe thinking of that may help you? I was not sober then, and only beginning again, now, but those thoughts help me.

foolsgold66

Welcome. Keep going to AA, keep talking to us and work on putting that bottle away.