MatildaRose

Hello friends. I have been in and out of recovery most of my life (I am 60yrs. old) and as BAD as each relapse feels, I am hopeful that they served me a purpose? I feel like each time I had a long time of sobriety (months even 10+years once) a relapse would happen and each time it was harder than the last for me to quit again? I see each time of sobriety a gift that gave me a glimpse of how wonderful people/places/things really are and how much I love life. I want to LIVE. This time (I PRAY) I will stay sober for sure and I know I will need help to reach that goal. I was raised in an AA family and have been familiar with their teachings since my days back in the 1960s in Ala~teen. I think I have learned a lot from their teachings. I also have been harmed because after all this is a group of human beings. Sometimes I have just had to walk away from them for awhile. There is so much drama/trauma in that world and also so much hope. I have to walk away from AA for awhile. I know I need a support team and I know I can lend the same to others! I also see so much hope as I read your posts. My question is, may I please join you all in this journey back to health?

mecanix

Hello MatildaRose ,

Nice to have you along on the journey ,

m

ImperfectlyMe

Please join us Matilda we need you as much as you need us!

1undone

I'm glad I'm not alone in this regard! Thank you so very much for posting this! I know AA helps many but it's not for me - does more harm than good. In the beginning it gave me hope. Now I feel sick thinking about the experiences. Take care!

MatildaRose

I feel grateful to be here! We are in this together and together we can heal!

Mizzuno

Welcome aboard the SR train! We are so happy to have you. This forum has been the #1 tool that I use for my sobriety. I hope that you find it to be a very positive experience, and know that we are here for support. ((HUG)) to you!

MatildaRose

I am believing it's gonna be my number 1 tool as well.