day 3 and meeting #3
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day 3 and meeting #3
Day 3 and meeting #3 accomplished. I'm really exhausted. Need to sleep better.
I didn't make the morning meeting like I planned. Hard time getting out of bed. But I did make the meeting after work. It was a small meeting. Before I knew it, almost everyone in the room had already spoke and the only one left was me. Pressure! Please don't ask me to speak!
So today was the first time I actually shared. My first 2 meetings I only said "hi my name is bla bla I'm an alcoholic... 1 day sober or 2 days sober". Today I actually spoke for a couple minutes. I was really a nervous wreck. After the meeting I met 2 really cool people and I'm really happy because I feel like these were people I would definitely be comfortable talking to if I need someone.
I'm still super scared that I'm going to fail and everything will just go to **** again. But I feel like I at least have a better chance today than I did yesterday or the day before that.
Hope I sleep well tonight and no nightmares.
I didn't make the morning meeting like I planned. Hard time getting out of bed. But I did make the meeting after work. It was a small meeting. Before I knew it, almost everyone in the room had already spoke and the only one left was me. Pressure! Please don't ask me to speak!
So today was the first time I actually shared. My first 2 meetings I only said "hi my name is bla bla I'm an alcoholic... 1 day sober or 2 days sober". Today I actually spoke for a couple minutes. I was really a nervous wreck. After the meeting I met 2 really cool people and I'm really happy because I feel like these were people I would definitely be comfortable talking to if I need someone.
I'm still super scared that I'm going to fail and everything will just go to **** again. But I feel like I at least have a better chance today than I did yesterday or the day before that.
Hope I sleep well tonight and no nightmares.
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hope...never lose hope.
by failing im gonna guess ya mean drink again? if so, know that it wont happen unless ya let it happen. a drink wont help anything.
it may take T.I.M.E. but I guarantee that iffen ya work the program:
We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.
No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.
That feeling of uselessness and self pity will disappear.
We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.
Self-seeking will slip away.
Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.
Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.
We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.
We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves
well, you can replace "we" with "you."
theres a lot more promises,too.
by failing im gonna guess ya mean drink again? if so, know that it wont happen unless ya let it happen. a drink wont help anything.
it may take T.I.M.E. but I guarantee that iffen ya work the program:
We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.
No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.
That feeling of uselessness and self pity will disappear.
We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.
Self-seeking will slip away.
Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.
Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.
We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.
We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves
well, you can replace "we" with "you."
theres a lot more promises,too.
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I'm so glad that you went! You know, if you really don't feel like speaking there's nothing wrong with saying that you prefer to pass. The first one that I went to when I got my white chip I was handed the steps and asked and I told them that I preferred not to. I do speak up now and it gets easier every time. I don't pressure myself to do it every time though.
Glad to hear from you. Wishing all bad dreams away!
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Ladyblue 
always nice to hear from you
I'm not feeling great, but your responses usually make me happy.
I actually do want to share. I have a million thoughts going through my head and I really do want to open up and talk. I wanna join the club, I don't want to be some 3 day sober spectator. I'm just still really nervous. But it's getting easier. The size of this meeting scared me at first because I knew someone might ask me to share. But it was a blessing. Because I don't think I'm as afraid now.
always nice to hear from you I'm not feeling great, but your responses usually make me happy.
I actually do want to share. I have a million thoughts going through my head and I really do want to open up and talk. I wanna join the club, I don't want to be some 3 day sober spectator. I'm just still really nervous. But it's getting easier. The size of this meeting scared me at first because I knew someone might ask me to share. But it was a blessing. Because I don't think I'm as afraid now.
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Well, thats a start .. but you do not have to speak if you dont want to, even if you feel like everyones staring/waiting/pressuring you to do so, just sit there .. and if you feel you have to speak, just say, "my name is Alkie/Addict, and im here to listen" ..
Good luck .. Day 3 .. it gets easier each day!
Good luck .. Day 3 .. it gets easier each day!
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Originally Posted by scarystuff 
tomsteve - thanks. I really hope I get there one day. That's what I want. I like the sound of that
are ya ready to take ceratin steps?
heres what it says after them promises:
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
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