I guess this is how it is..
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I guess this is how it is..
I relapsed for 6 days, didnt use too much but I did use. Been clean this time for 6 days. I have the willpower right now to not use... As I did just turn down the "do you need anything" text. What gets to me is when I read about people where it took months and months or even years to feel normal again. That's what scares me.. When I think that it could take me months to feel normal I get depressed and feel like there's no point, after all 1 pill could make me feel better now. I know I can't go back to where I was a month ago because I can't hide it from my family anymore. I will also be trying to get back on track financially for a long time.
Hi Bang
I think as addicts we get really tuned into the now - immediate gratification - but honestly - thats not how the world works for anyone over ten, y'know?
The fact is I look back and the time it took me to feel normal really wasn't that long at all.
I drank for decades - it took me three months to start to feel normal and maybe a year to sort myself out - I still think that's a bloody good deal.
I hope your journey will be shorter....but ultimately - whats the alternative?
keep on using, have things get worse and worse and end up dead before your time?
D
I think as addicts we get really tuned into the now - immediate gratification - but honestly - thats not how the world works for anyone over ten, y'know?
The fact is I look back and the time it took me to feel normal really wasn't that long at all.
I drank for decades - it took me three months to start to feel normal and maybe a year to sort myself out - I still think that's a bloody good deal.
I hope your journey will be shorter....but ultimately - whats the alternative?
keep on using, have things get worse and worse and end up dead before your time?
D
I relapsed for 6 days, didnt use too much but I did use. Been clean this time for 6 days. I have the willpower right now to not use... As I did just turn down the "do you need anything" text. What gets to me is when I read about people where it took months and months or even years to feel normal again. That's what scares me.. When I think that it could take me months to feel normal I get depressed and feel like there's no point, after all 1 pill could make me feel better now. I know I can't go back to where I was a month ago because I can't hide it from my family anymore. I will also be trying to get back on track financially for a long time.
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