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Old 06-29-2013, 06:50 AM
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What a mess

Relapsed again! This was a few months ago..hadnt touched a drop for weeks and thought i was able to manage a few. How sodding wrong was i, again! Back up to a bottle of vodka an evening, more mistakes, regrets and shame to live with..How my wife has not left me is a miracle. Cant beleive im in this state again. So first day again guys..i have to do it this time, i just have too.

Will be checking in daily for much needed support.
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Old 06-29-2013, 07:37 AM
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Many have relapses, especially when your addictive voice tells you that it's ok, you can control yourself now.

You have to control that pleasure-seeking part of your brain, it will talk you into drinking every time. Look into AVRT here on the forums.
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Old 06-29-2013, 07:52 AM
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Many have relapses, especially when your addictive voice tells you that it's ok, you can control yourself now.

You have to control that pleasure-seeking part of your brain, it will talk you into drinking every time. Look into AVRT here on the forums.
I was reading up and working on AVRT before i relapsed..took my foot off the gas and didnt recognise it! Time to start it again

Thanks for the reminder...
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Old 06-29-2013, 08:03 AM
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For most of us, the initial idea that you can never drink again proves to be quite daunting. That is why it takes multiple attempts at sobriety for it to stick usually. We all try the "Hey I havent drank in a few weeks, I bet I can moderate myself now since I took a break", but it never works out that way. Chalk it up to a learning experience and actually part of the recovery process. I tried everything under the sun to not have to stop drinking, but in the end, quitting completely was my only real option. Once you realize you have to take alcohol off the table completely, its quite freeing.
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Old 06-29-2013, 08:08 AM
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loved ones will show in time

Originally Posted by Mark03 View Post

How my wife has not left me is a miracle.

Cant beleive im in this state again.

So first day again guys..i have to do it this time
please don't push her too far
I lost so many fine ones back in my drinking days

for many such as myself it took going back out many times
to realize what I have and how sweet sobriety truly is

welcome back to the One Day At A Time without a drink
the days do add up if we keep the plug in the jug
and not only will we feel much better about ourselves
but
our loved ones also will show in time how pleased they are with our sobriety

wishing for you a blessed day
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Old 06-29-2013, 08:10 AM
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Welcome Mark. You can do this if you really want it. I spent the last couple years trying to quit and never quite doing so, but SR has helped me stay sober now for almost 6 months. Read lots and if AVRT was working for you by all means get back to that too.
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Old 06-29-2013, 08:23 AM
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Thanks guys...appreciate your kind words and advice
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Old 06-29-2013, 09:49 AM
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I threw away almost a year of sobriety for one beer. Was soon back to 10+ per day, and planning my activities around my drinking.

Took me three-and-a half years to quit again. I'm on day 101 today. All the panic, fear, regrets and anxiety that alcohol causes is just starting to fade.

I know if I even open up a can of beer the next relapse will be worse.

Remembering how bad I felt mentally 101 days ago is keeping me from drinking today.

I'm sorry you are back at day one now. Wish you all the best in staying sober!
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welcome back Mark

Just FYI....There's some really good AVRT discussion in our Secular Connections forum too

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Old 06-29-2013, 03:19 PM
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Originally Posted by Mark03 View Post
Relapsed again! This was a few months ago..hadnt touched a drop for weeks and thought i was able to manage a few. How sodding wrong was i, again! Back up to a bottle of vodka an evening, more mistakes, regrets and shame to live with..How my wife has not left me is a miracle. Cant beleive im in this state again. So first day again guys..i have to do it this time, i just have too.

Will be checking in daily for much needed support.
I'm in the EXACT same spot, brother. I'm determined to kick the hell out of it this time. Good luck.
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Old 06-29-2013, 03:21 PM
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Originally Posted by TexasMichael View Post
I threw away almost a year of sobriety for one beer. Was soon back to 10+ per day, and planning my activities around my drinking.

Took me three-and-a half years to quit again. I'm on day 101 today. All the panic, fear, regrets and anxiety that alcohol causes is just starting to fade.

I know if I even open up a can of beer the next relapse will be worse.

Remembering how bad I felt mentally 101 days ago is keeping me from drinking today.

I'm sorry you are back at day one now. Wish you all the best in staying sober!
Awesome job, man. 101 days is incredible!
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