Garden Girl

This is going to be kind of a weird thing to say, but I think my dreams have become way more exciting than my real life, so for the last 8-10 months I have been sleeping my way through life. I go to work, and I am awesome at my job, but their feedback is that nobody knows me. My sex drive has been totally absent, and that is affecting my relationship. I crave just escaping back into my dreams, and do so every chance I get. I first thought all this sleep was from me drinking so much, but now, I am thinking this may be a form of depression? Has anyone else gone through this? If so, what have you done to get on with LIVING your life?

Mizzuno

Karissaleigh- I have been wondering where you have been? Now I understand. I think that depression can be really powerful for some people. I am sorry that you are feeling this way. I know that you have moved recently, started a new job, your sober, and trying all that you can to make things alright in your life. It seems like you hit the nail on the head, and realized that this may be deeper than you thought.
K, you are going to need to force yourself out of that bed, and get to doing something that will energize you. Do you journal? Do you take walks? Have you made any friends to go and get some coffee with? How is your diet? Have you thought of seeing a physician?
I have felt this way before. I was really depressed at one time. I went to a therapist, and started to work through my "Stuff". I am thankful that you posted today. I am thankful for you, and being on this site. Lets try to get through it one step at a time. I am glad that you are starting to talk about what is ailing you.

least

It could be depression. Only way to know for sure is to see a specialist and be 'tested' for signs of it. I hope you can find some peace in your waking life.

Dee74

Everyone's different, but generally when I want to sleep more than live my life I need to reach out and get some help Karissa.

D

Garden Girl

I know I need to get myself out more, it is just really hard. I did go on a bike ride yesterday. I just thought that when I moved here, I was magically going to turn into the person I want to be overnight now that I am sober and nobody here ever knew the drunk me. I know there are bigger issues here, I have been eating my way through my change, gained a couple pounds, feel unattractive emotionally and physically. I'm not suicidal, I just feel useless. I remember feeling this way for most of my adolescents as well... I slept a lot then too. I want to be the opposite of me, but can't seem to pull it off. It's like I'm standing behind glass beating on it trying to get the physical body of me to come too and wake up, but nothing gives. I haven't the slightest clue what kind of doctor I would consult for this, general, psyc? I am not covered for mental health. I really love that I am sober, and I have so much going for me, i just want a good life.