I know I need to get myself out more, it is just really hard. I did go on a bike ride yesterday. I just thought that when I moved here, I was magically going to turn into the person I want to be overnight now that I am sober and nobody here ever knew the drunk me. I know there are bigger issues here, I have been eating my way through my change, gained a couple pounds, feel unattractive emotionally and physically. I'm not suicidal, I just feel useless. I remember feeling this way for most of my adolescents as well... I slept a lot then too. I want to be the opposite of me, but can't seem to pull it off. It's like I'm standing behind glass beating on it trying to get the physical body of me to come too and wake up, but nothing gives. I haven't the slightest clue what kind of doctor I would consult for this, general, psyc? I am not covered for mental health. I really love that I am sober, and I have so much going for me, i just want a good life.