Day one today
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Day one today
Hi.
Today is my day one. TBH I'm freaking out. I've been to this point so many times before and I've caved in. My life is a relative mess. Not completely but relatively. I know giving up drinking and drugs will help me a lot. I don't expect it to fix everything.
Anyway this is my first post. I'm off work. I've holed up in my bedroom. My partner I think is disgusted with me. I have a feeling she's angry because I'm trying to do something about my addictions.
Be nice to hear from someone out there.
BTW I'm going to AA tonight for the first time. Wish me luck!
Today is my day one. TBH I'm freaking out. I've been to this point so many times before and I've caved in. My life is a relative mess. Not completely but relatively. I know giving up drinking and drugs will help me a lot. I don't expect it to fix everything.
Anyway this is my first post. I'm off work. I've holed up in my bedroom. My partner I think is disgusted with me. I have a feeling she's angry because I'm trying to do something about my addictions.
Be nice to hear from someone out there.
BTW I'm going to AA tonight for the first time. Wish me luck!
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Originally Posted by bravenewworld07 
Hi.
Today is my day one. TBH I'm freaking out. I've been to this point so many times before and I've caved in. My life is a relative mess. Not completely but relatively. I know giving up drinking and drugs will help me a lot. I don't expect it to fix everything.
Anyway this is my first post. I'm off work. I've holed up in my bedroom. My partner I think is disgusted with me. I have a feeling she's angry because I'm trying to do something about my addictions.
Be nice to hear from someone out there.
BTW I'm going to AA tonight for the first time. Wish me luck!
Today is my day one. TBH I'm freaking out. I've been to this point so many times before and I've caved in. My life is a relative mess. Not completely but relatively. I know giving up drinking and drugs will help me a lot. I don't expect it to fix everything.
Anyway this is my first post. I'm off work. I've holed up in my bedroom. My partner I think is disgusted with me. I have a feeling she's angry because I'm trying to do something about my addictions.
Be nice to hear from someone out there.
BTW I'm going to AA tonight for the first time. Wish me luck!
many of us have had day ones before (sometimes a couple) they are scary, but don't worry, its get better... it gets awesome! you can do this!!!
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I was scared, too, especially when I realized how serious my problem was.
This is a wonderful forum to read and post on. So much help here, and people going through the same thing you are.
Good luck in AA, that's a great step forward for your life! Your partner should be happy for you, too....maybe she is just afraid of change, or just needs time to get used to the idea.
You gotta do it for you, anyways, it'll be sooo worth it!
This is a wonderful forum to read and post on. So much help here, and people going through the same thing you are.
Good luck in AA, that's a great step forward for your life! Your partner should be happy for you, too....maybe she is just afraid of change, or just needs time to get used to the idea.
You gotta do it for you, anyways, it'll be sooo worth it!
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Originally Posted by bravenewworld07
Hi.
Today is my day one. TBH I'm freaking out. I've been to this point so many times before and I've caved in. My life is a relative mess. Not completely but relatively. I know giving up drinking and drugs will help me a lot. I don't expect it to fix everything.
Anyway this is my first post. I'm off work. I've holed up in my bedroom. My partner I think is disgusted with me. I have a feeling she's angry because I'm trying to do something about my addictions.
Be nice to hear from someone out there.
BTW I'm going to AA tonight for the first time. Wish me luck!
Today is my day one. TBH I'm freaking out. I've been to this point so many times before and I've caved in. My life is a relative mess. Not completely but relatively. I know giving up drinking and drugs will help me a lot. I don't expect it to fix everything.
Anyway this is my first post. I'm off work. I've holed up in my bedroom. My partner I think is disgusted with me. I have a feeling she's angry because I'm trying to do something about my addictions.
Be nice to hear from someone out there.
BTW I'm going to AA tonight for the first time. Wish me luck!
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Originally Posted by Heartfan82
I was scared, too, especially when I realized how serious my problem was.
This is a wonderful forum to read and post on. So much help here, and people going through the same thing you are.
Good luck in AA, that's a great step forward for your life! Your partner should be happy for you, too....maybe she is just afraid of change, or just needs time to get used to the idea.
You gotta do it for you, anyways, it'll be sooo worth it!
This is a wonderful forum to read and post on. So much help here, and people going through the same thing you are.
Good luck in AA, that's a great step forward for your life! Your partner should be happy for you, too....maybe she is just afraid of change, or just needs time to get used to the idea.
You gotta do it for you, anyways, it'll be sooo worth it!
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Welcome to SR, Bravenewworld. I am going to ditto all the above, the only regret you will have is for not having done this sooner! Don’t worry about the partner, focus on you right now and once she sees the positive changes in you; that should ease her mind!
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Originally Posted by Odelle
Welcome to SR, Bravenewworld. I am going to ditto all the above, the only regret you will have is for not having done this sooner! Don’t worry about the partner, focus on you right now and once she sees the positive changes in you; that should ease her mind!
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The place where you find yourself at the moment is a scary one, that's for sure. I remember being there many many times. The uncertainty, confusion, self hate, fears, loneliness and that sense of having a terribly difficult mountain to climb, is the pits. And yet strangely it is the feeling that you have right now that will prove to be one of your most valuable assets in recovery. At least it will be if you can hold on to the feeling over the coming days, weeks and months ahead. I still get butterflies in my stomach and a feeling of nausea when I think back to where I was after my last drink.
So whilst knowing that as the days pass you will begin to feel better. And that you never need to feel like this again. Just hold on to that feeling that you have at the moment. Store it away somewhere and don't loose it, because it will be enough to stop you taking to top off the bottle when you want to drink again.
So whilst knowing that as the days pass you will begin to feel better. And that you never need to feel like this again. Just hold on to that feeling that you have at the moment. Store it away somewhere and don't loose it, because it will be enough to stop you taking to top off the bottle when you want to drink again.
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Originally Posted by shauninspain
The place where you find yourself at the moment is a scary one, that's for sure. I remember being there many many times. The uncertainty, confusion, self hate, fears, loneliness and that sense of having a terribly difficult mountain to climb, is the pits. And yet strangely it is the feeling that you have right now that will prove to be one of your most valuable assets in recovery. At least it will be if you can hold on to the feeling over the coming days, weeks and months ahead. I still get butterflies in my stomach and a feeling of nausea when I think back to where I was after my last drink.
So whilst knowing that as the days pass you will begin to feel better. And that you never need to feel like this again. Just hold on to that feeling that you have at the moment. Store it away somewhere and don't loose it, because it will be enough to stop you taking to top off the bottle when you want to drink again.
So whilst knowing that as the days pass you will begin to feel better. And that you never need to feel like this again. Just hold on to that feeling that you have at the moment. Store it away somewhere and don't loose it, because it will be enough to stop you taking to top off the bottle when you want to drink again.
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Originally Posted by bravenewworld07
I have a question though. Everything I've read from AA mentions a higher power. I've never beloved in a god. Will this be a problem for me?
Your mind is a power full tool when used to your advantage.
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This is a really good link for anyone thinking about AA - there's a section about God Religion and Spirituality, but it's good to read the whole thing I think
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Being a non believer is no problem at all. I see SR as a power greater than myself, as indeed it is. Thousands of people is far more powerful than me. Their collective experience, wisdom, compassion... you name it... it's a powerful thing.
Some people in AA say that GOD stands for Good Orderly Direction. I knew a guy who in the early days knelt down and preyed in front of his motorbike in his garage! Whatever works for you is fine. It's the action of humility rather than the thing to which we are humble that's important.
Enjoy your meeting tonight and remember to look for the similarities, not the differences. Feel no pressure to speak and just enjoy listening to others. You'll soon realize that you are amongst others who have the same malady.
Some people in AA say that GOD stands for Good Orderly Direction. I knew a guy who in the early days knelt down and preyed in front of his motorbike in his garage! Whatever works for you is fine. It's the action of humility rather than the thing to which we are humble that's important.
Enjoy your meeting tonight and remember to look for the similarities, not the differences. Feel no pressure to speak and just enjoy listening to others. You'll soon realize that you are amongst others who have the same malady.
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Welcome bravenewworld07!
Proud of you...day one is hard. Especially if you feel as if you don't have support at home... but we are all here for you!!!
Hope your first meeting goes well, really looking forward to hearing about it!
Love Venus xx
Proud of you...day one is hard. Especially if you feel as if you don't have support at home... but we are all here for you!!!
Hope your first meeting goes well, really looking forward to hearing about it!
Love Venus xx
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Can you believe it? I got out of bed, showered and dressed to go to the meeting and realised I'm locked in! My girlfriend isn't home for 3 hours. I can't go to the meeting. There's another one tomorrow night in a different part of the city. I'll go to that one.
I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow. Thanks again for the support.
I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow. Thanks again for the support.
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