Not drinking from today
The AV can be tricky because when it gets hungry it wants to be fed and will put all sorts of thoughts into your head.
Mine told me " ill only have wine and beer" "if I'm at home it will be fine" "it's thanksgiving" "you've been sober for weeks i bet you've outgrown it" etc etc etc.
None of that worked. Even if i could moderate a day or two here and there eventually something would always happen and I'd find myself on a one way train to blackout vile.
Mine told me " ill only have wine and beer" "if I'm at home it will be fine" "it's thanksgiving" "you've been sober for weeks i bet you've outgrown it" etc etc etc.
None of that worked. Even if i could moderate a day or two here and there eventually something would always happen and I'd find myself on a one way train to blackout vile.
Grind out the early days weeks or even months, things get better and better. Life is raw real and very bright without drugs. It's a life changing thing , takes learning and a bit of skill in certain situations . Simplicity and liberation from the shackles of toxins is the prize.
Sober is cool. Good luck.
Sober is cool. Good luck.
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The AV can be tricky because when it gets hungry it wants to be fed and will put all sorts of thoughts into your head.
Mine told me " ill only have wine and beer" "if I'm at home it will be fine" "it's thanksgiving" "you've been sober for weeks i bet you've outgrown it" etc etc etc.
None of that worked. Even if i could moderate a day or two here and there eventually something would always happen and I'd find myself on a one way train to blackout vile.
Mine told me " ill only have wine and beer" "if I'm at home it will be fine" "it's thanksgiving" "you've been sober for weeks i bet you've outgrown it" etc etc etc.
None of that worked. Even if i could moderate a day or two here and there eventually something would always happen and I'd find myself on a one way train to blackout vile.
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Grind out the early days weeks or even months, things get better and better. Life is raw real and very bright without drugs. It's a life changing thing , takes learning and a bit of skill in certain situations . Simplicity and liberation from the shackles of toxins is the prize.
Sober is cool. Good luck.
Sober is cool. Good luck.
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I have over a year now without a drink.
What does that mean to me when I look back?
No next mornings spent crying or regretting what I had done.
No wondering if I needed to apologise to anyone.
No wondering if people were talking about me.
No feeling like the world is going to end.
No hiding away from people as I was too ashamed to face them.
Being able to answer the phone at anytime of the day or night and be 100% fine.
Being able to drive anytime I want knowing I am 100% sober.
Do I think I have missed out this last year?
Absolutely not.
Has this last year without a drink been boring?
No not at all. In fact if anything I have done more because I have not been trying to sleep off a hangover.
How do I define myself - an alcoholic, binge drinker, dangerous drinker? I don't know and I don't need to know. I believe that drinking makes me unhappy and thats enough for me to not do it.
What does that mean to me when I look back?
No next mornings spent crying or regretting what I had done.
No wondering if I needed to apologise to anyone.
No wondering if people were talking about me.
No feeling like the world is going to end.
No hiding away from people as I was too ashamed to face them.
Being able to answer the phone at anytime of the day or night and be 100% fine.
Being able to drive anytime I want knowing I am 100% sober.
Do I think I have missed out this last year?
Absolutely not.
Has this last year without a drink been boring?
No not at all. In fact if anything I have done more because I have not been trying to sleep off a hangover.
How do I define myself - an alcoholic, binge drinker, dangerous drinker? I don't know and I don't need to know. I believe that drinking makes me unhappy and thats enough for me to not do it.
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I have over a year now without a drink.
What does that mean to me when I look back?
No next mornings spent crying or regretting what I had done.
No wondering if I needed to apologise to anyone.
No wondering if people were talking about me.
No feeling like the world is going to end.
No hiding away from people as I was too ashamed to face them.
Being able to answer the phone at anytime of the day or night and be 100% fine.
Being able to drive anytime I want knowing I am 100% sober.
Do I think I have missed out this last year?
Absolutely not.
Has this last year without a drink been boring?
No not at all. In fact if anything I have done more because I have not been trying to sleep off a hangover.
How do I define myself - an alcoholic, binge drinker, dangerous drinker? I don't know and I don't need to know. I believe that drinking makes me unhappy and thats enough for me to not do it.
What does that mean to me when I look back?
No next mornings spent crying or regretting what I had done.
No wondering if I needed to apologise to anyone.
No wondering if people were talking about me.
No feeling like the world is going to end.
No hiding away from people as I was too ashamed to face them.
Being able to answer the phone at anytime of the day or night and be 100% fine.
Being able to drive anytime I want knowing I am 100% sober.
Do I think I have missed out this last year?
Absolutely not.
Has this last year without a drink been boring?
No not at all. In fact if anything I have done more because I have not been trying to sleep off a hangover.
How do I define myself - an alcoholic, binge drinker, dangerous drinker? I don't know and I don't need to know. I believe that drinking makes me unhappy and thats enough for me to not do it.
I can only hope that I will be saying the same things in a year.
True friends say "I'll be there for you".
I haven't met up with my friends since I got sober so I'm also thinking about how they'll respond when I order a nice, refreshing, sophisticated ginger ale and lime. This is by no means necessarily the way to go for you or anyone else, but if they hassle me about not drinking, I'm just going to say "I'm an alcoholic". That may shut them up; it may cause drama. Either way, no one's going to die and I'll finally get to see who my real friends are. I'm too old to take horsesh*t from people who only pretend to care about me.
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Hi coffeetogo How are you feeling today? Good I hope. I noticed you had many responses yesterday, its a great feeling knowing that everyone is out there, and they understand how you feel! Its a great website, I hope we can all keep you going as we keep each other going.
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Hi coffeetogo How are you feeling today? Good I hope. I noticed you had many responses yesterday, its a great feeling knowing that everyone is out there, and they understand how you feel! Its a great website, I hope we can all keep you going as we keep each other going.
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