myjourney4me

I can't tell you how good it feels to be back among others that are recovering. I had to look back to see how long it had been and it was sept 11 of last year. I had been going to AA and was doing ok but having difficulty getting the proper diagnosis with my hypothyroid. Still dealing with it but getting closer. It was causing alot of my depression and I couldnt find an antidepressant to help me because of it. Now I realize I have been misdiagnosed for decades... but that just gave me another excuse to drink and try to feel better but it caused so many more problems it was getting pretty scarry. So here I am again to be among you all that are getting or staying sober and to be on the same road of a better life. I have hurt myself and especially my DH enough. I was pretty private about it so I didn't envolve anyone else thank goodness but I just isolated from them. I wasn't an everyday drinker so I could pull it off with most people. I'm ready to be free and wake up feeling better than any day after drinking. I was starting to hide them from my DH and drink the morning after to get rid of the hangover....it's alot different with hypothyroidism....it was really messing with me more emotionally than ever...scarred the crap out of me. You would think by 58 I would have already gotten this and years of recovery. I have been in rehabs and years of sobriety in between that is would have stuck but here I am. Brain is still scrambly but trying to explain me and hope to get to know you all better. That's my story for now
Myjourney4me

Nonsensical

Welcome back!

2granddaughters

Are you still going to AA meetings?

All the best.

Bob R

myjourney4me

I'm not right now. I've had a bad relationship with the women I hung out with...both still on drugs and one selling them. One I had known for many years and I tend to gravitate back to them so I at least know someone....I'm on the shy side so I know I do it because it's easier and I know them. Where I live their isn't many meeting. I know the isolation isn't good but right now with my health issues I haven't wanted to go anywhere. Just trying to get well first and then go back or just hang on here... I have trouble just getting out of my PJ's. I haven't been able to find an antidepressant that will work with my thyroid still not in balance. I have an appointment next week with both my endocrinologist and counselor and can't wait. At least I have found out what the real problem is.
Nonsensical...what is AVRT?
Thank you for your replies....nice to have some connection.
Myjourney4me