MarleyMac

Hi havent read this properly but I wish you all the luck in the world
Marley

Windancer

Thanks everyone. Sorry I seem so negative! I keep switching from excited to really scared and out of my comfort zone and I cant sleep (its about 4 am here now).
I know that really I am lucky and should be very grateful for this opportunity.

heath480

All the best windancer.

I am sure it will work out well for you.

Windancer

I love your signature, Heath. Tis a good one .

lilgolden73

Wind!!! You won't forget about us! Plz come back and let us know how you are! Best of luck and I will say a prayer for you!

MycoolFitz

Hold on and hang in my thoughts and prayers are with you. Things come and things go. You can and will get though this.

courage2

you don't seem negative -- you seem honest! work hard in your rehab and if you're temporarily out of touch, remember that you have a lot of friends here rooting for you & missing your support! Serious hugs!

Elisabeth888

I will be thinking of you! Maybe rehab will give you the strength to get through jail. I am sorry you have to go.

TTBABP

Good luck. All good thoughts to be sent your way!

BabyJane

Wow. Jail IS scary. We will still be here when you get back so even if you can't post from inside rehab / jail you're going to get to come out and tell us all how you stayed sober! Can't wait to hear about that! Also, I'm sure they will have some meetings for you to attend or something like that so open up to the people you meet and let them support you too. Remember that's how we do this thing - we help each other.

Windancer

I dont know yet. Min. is 30 days....I could do more. But it seems likely Ill get the minimum (20 for good behaviour) and weekend. I think the anticipatory anxiety is worse then it actually will be. This sounds like such addict talk...but I wish soooo bad I could smoke there! (I do want to quit....one thing at a time thought, right?).

sugarbear1

Love and hugs sent to you!

miko67

Stay positive windancer. It will give you more time sober, it will help you be alone, you can exercise like mad, you will appreciate what you got when you leave and help you be stronger in your resolve to keep moving forward.
Peace

Nikkipoo

Good Luck Windancer! Try to check in with us here at SR after you are there if you have computer access.

Windancer

...or . Tomorrow at this time Ill have a new bed to sleep in!!!! Scared. Thanks for the support all my SR friends. I have to leave at about 1 pm to get there by 3 (it is 6:40 pm for me here now).....so I will check in tomorrow morning for sure with SR and likely on and off tonight inbetween getting ready.
Im going to miss my horses. I have this terrible fear that something will happen to one of them while Im gone....silly, I know.

Windancer

FREAKIN PANICK ATTACK!
I so dont want to go to jail!!!!! I am soooooooooo glad I didnt hurt anyone, I just dont see how this will help me keep sober!!!!!! especially since at least 50% of my PTSD has been caused by institutions.

cat1961

Do NOT freak out! I know it's scary but I have to admit, as well as many people have told me, jail was the best thing for me. Yea, the BEST thing! When I got out, I had no desire to drink and stayed sober for at least a year thereafter.

Be thankful you are not going unexpectedly like I did and had to detox in jail. The absolute worst experience of my life. The withdrawals were horrid, I didn't know how or if I was getting out and for that matter, had no clue about all my personal possessions. I did know my ex-deadbeat was having a good time out bar hopping when he should have sent me $$$ for simple things like shampoo and toothpaste according to letters from him.

That said, you should have no problem compared to my expierience. Be sure to have $$ to put on your account for snacks and toiletries or whatever else is offered.

Who will be caring for your horses? I hope someone very close to you.

Again, it is what it is and you will survive. :ghug3

Windancer

Yes. My very good friend (and most recent ex) is willingly taking care of the horses. Im very lucky he is so supportive.

Windancer

..and by most recent ex i mean we lived together and dated for nearly three years, though we met almost 10 years ago.

Delilah1

You are strong and will get through this, hopefully rehab will give you some strategies for dealing with the anxiety about jail. When do you go back to court?