Trying again
"Run Till U Rot"
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: Oregon
Posts: 12
Trying again
Lost my way and fooled myself into thinking I was in control of alcohol. I am a 51 year old binge drinker. I can go for months not drinking and then want to believe I'm normal and can have a few. I haven't drank very much the last 7 years. A couple of embarrassing binges have kept me almost straight. I took up running and competing in marathons and that has saved my career, my marriage and life. But guess what, I'm still an alcoholic. I have never been completely free of it. It's always hiding inside and waiting to destroy all of my hard work. I recently came off of a night of heavy drinking with a co-worker who is going through a divorce. He will not admit its his behaviors are causing this and not his wives. Anyhow, I knew better. He came over with a six pack and gallon of whiskey. I woke up humiliated. I haven't drank with others in years. I make it a point to not have a drinking lifestyle. I feel depressed but realize I have been heading for this for sometime. I hate alcohol. I just feel tired and beaten. It has slowly grown into a problem again but again I will fight it. My grandfather and father died fairly young after living lives destroyed by alcohol and I refuse to end my life that way. I'm going to run harder, read my bible again and connect with others. I have many blessings in my life that I want to protect and care for. Just because I'm alcoholic doesn't mean I have to die a broken person. I refuse to. GOD help us all, It's a curse.
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: Colorado
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You can do it. Many of us have had slips along the way. Don't beat yourself up over it.
The Bible will help, I hope. Have you read the Big Book of AA. Try and see if you can relate.
Keep trying, and best to you.
The Bible will help, I hope. Have you read the Big Book of AA. Try and see if you can relate.
Keep trying, and best to you.
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