Tough decision
Tough decision
Today marks week five of no pot, and about two weeks since I got drunk. There's someone in town I haven't seen in well over a year, it would be nice to see them, there's going to be an event tonight and I know for a fact that there will be drugs and alcohol, in fact that will likely be the central focus of things.
It's obvious I shouldn't go, and the only reason I want to is out of guilt alone pretty much. I feel like I'm not being a good friend, that I should go to see them, but I also know it's not a good idea for obvious reasons.
I've never been very good when confronted head on like this, I look like a douche if I just say I don't want to go...
It's obvious I shouldn't go, and the only reason I want to is out of guilt alone pretty much. I feel like I'm not being a good friend, that I should go to see them, but I also know it's not a good idea for obvious reasons.
I've never been very good when confronted head on like this, I look like a douche if I just say I don't want to go...
You need to do what's best for you. Unwarranted guilt or relapse. Concerts and friedships don't have to be eliminated but you need to feel ready. If you came down with really dad flu you probably wouldn't feel guilty about changing plans. Listen to yourself and do what's best for you.
It's obvious I shouldn't go, and the only reason I want to is out of guilt alone pretty much. I feel like I'm not being a good friend, that I should go to see them, but I also know it's not a good idea for obvious reasons.
If you really want to see your friend you could make alternative arrangements and meet for coffee etc, Admiral. If that's not possible you can catch them next time.
I used to feel an almost irresistible pull to social things when I'd quit - I would tell myself it was being be a good friend, or me doing my duty, or me not wanting to look bad, or not wanting to be a hermit...or even me road testing my willpower...
what is really was was me wanting to be around alcohol (or also in my case pot) even when I swore I didn't want to drink/smoke (and consciously I think I believed that) I subconsciously wanted to be around it....
sure enough more often that not, being there, party mode, I joined in...'I'll just nurse this one all night....', 'just a little toke to be sociable'...
yeah right.
Some of us are so skilled at manipulation we can even manipulate ourselves and not know it til after it happens Admiral.
Personally, I'd give this one a miss.
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