100 Days Sober
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Sober State
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100 Days Sober
I just want to tell the Newcomers that you can do this.
I was stuck on the merry go round of addiction. I hated myself, hated what I'd become & felt completely hopeless. I thought death was the only thing that would bring me relief.
I felt so worn out from binge drinking, promising myself I would stop, only to run back to the liquor store, hours or days later.
I was so depressed & the only relief I thought I could get was from that bottle.
But it was only temporary relief, then I was right back where I began. I tried moderating for awhile(which was more like torture) unsuccessfully.
Then I found SR. I found people just like me. People who understood & some had figured out how to get off the merry go round.
For once I had hope.
I FINALLY had enough. I decided I wanted to live. I knew if I kept on, I was going to die.
I decided I would do whatever it took to get sober. I wanted to be sober more
than air. I took the option of drinking off the table completely.
It was hard at first but I kept coming here for support, ordered & read lots of books on addiction.
Once I got a few weeks under my belt, my whole outlook started changing. My moods started stabilizing. My anxiety & depression lifted.
Life started feeling good. I felt good about myself for once.
And that's all it took for me. Once I decided I could never drink again &
accepted that, was ok with it..... I have never felt so free.
I will never go back to that prison of pain again.
It can be done!
I was stuck on the merry go round of addiction. I hated myself, hated what I'd become & felt completely hopeless. I thought death was the only thing that would bring me relief.
I felt so worn out from binge drinking, promising myself I would stop, only to run back to the liquor store, hours or days later.
I was so depressed & the only relief I thought I could get was from that bottle.
But it was only temporary relief, then I was right back where I began. I tried moderating for awhile(which was more like torture) unsuccessfully.
Then I found SR. I found people just like me. People who understood & some had figured out how to get off the merry go round.
For once I had hope.
I FINALLY had enough. I decided I wanted to live. I knew if I kept on, I was going to die.
I decided I would do whatever it took to get sober. I wanted to be sober more
than air. I took the option of drinking off the table completely.
It was hard at first but I kept coming here for support, ordered & read lots of books on addiction.
Once I got a few weeks under my belt, my whole outlook started changing. My moods started stabilizing. My anxiety & depression lifted.
Life started feeling good. I felt good about myself for once.
And that's all it took for me. Once I decided I could never drink again &
accepted that, was ok with it..... I have never felt so free.
I will never go back to that prison of pain again.
It can be done!
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Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Austin, Texas
Posts: 1,387
Congratulations PurpleCatLover!
You are one of my favorite SR members....with all of your wisdom and "right on" posts, you have helped me more than you would ever realize.
Thank you for your contributions to the forum, and double congrats for your sober days. You are an inspiration to me. Enjoy the day!!!!!
You are one of my favorite SR members....with all of your wisdom and "right on" posts, you have helped me more than you would ever realize.
Thank you for your contributions to the forum, and double congrats for your sober days. You are an inspiration to me. Enjoy the day!!!!!
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Spinning happily in my hula hoop
Posts: 2,618
You go PCL!!! Happy 100Th!! I am also a fan of your post, they are so inspirational and grounded... You have helped me so much when I have been frustrated, your words just make me keep doing what I need to do.....I loved your quote the other day in class "So often we live our lives in chains, without knowing we hold the key" So true!!......Your like the wise old man... only your the wise purplecatlover to me ..lol 
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