Ethos23

About a year ago, I was neck deep (maybe deeper) in a bender/binge. I was deep down in a hole and felt like crap on every level. I made some tough choices soon after, the first and most important of which was to acknowledge that I had a problem, and things have been so much better. This last Saturday I woke up early to go run a half-marathon. I felt great. I beat my projected time by about 20 minutes. I guess, I need to look inside again, because it looks like I am underestimating myself. The rest of the day was great. Perfect weather, no work, just spent the day with my family and I was REALLY there. I did drink a lot, of water and tea, but that was great too.

Jersey Nonny

Good for you!!! It's always nice to see good news on here...there is always so much of the other kind...every success story is encouraging to all of us. Thanks for sharing!!!

Sapling

I agree...That's a great post.

BillyPilgrim

Inspiring, well done!

Anna

Wonderful!

I think it's common to underestimate our strengths when we are in active addiction. Good for you for pursuing your goal.

Spinach

Could you have even hoped for that a year ago ?
Thank you.
John.

Ethos23

Good question. Hoped for it? No. I really felt hopeless when looking at things from a day-to-day perspective. However, I could envision it. I still had the ability to dream that some day I would be able to do this. I hope this makes sense. Running has really been my foundation in my recovery. I believe it is very symbolic to our recovery paths. The thought of never drinking again can be extremely daunting; so to can the thought of running X number of miles. On the alternate, thinking of not drinking today, this hour, this minute, or this breath seems completely attainable; so to does putting in a training run today, or simply putting one foot in front of the other.

Purplecatlover

That is so awesome! Thanks for sharing.