Fdm

After months of sobriety, I fell right back into drinking last week.

The stress in my personal and work life convinced me to go back to my "release". My grandfather was near death from Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, and is still fighting for his life, my back is giving me fits again, and the workload that I have to do alone has been a lot to bear lately.

I poured my Spaten Optimator out a few minutes ago that I had decided to buy Friday night. I'm going to see the chiropractor again this morning, and I am going to simplify some financial stuff today before going to work later.

I also noticed that I have gained almost 6 pounds since falling again.

Sapling

Sorry to hear that. Alcohol only takes a bad situation and makes it worse. Glad you're back and good luck moving forward.

Firehazard

Sorry about your fall Fdm. That is what we do when we suffer from untreated alcoholism. We drink. I have found that alcoholism is a illness and needs to be treated as such. Are you ready to try something different?

Fdm

Well, regular walking was great therapy, until my back issues came up again. The weight thing motivated me to pour it out today. I can motivate myself, as long as I can manage the stress.

foodie1

You're picking yourself up and dusting off, that's the important thing. Do you have anyone near where you live that you can talk with about getting (and staying) sober and about life stressors?

BillyPilgrim

Fdm, we have to be aware all the time that Alcohol can drag us back. It will do it when we are at our lowest. I hope you can gain the strenghth to fight it.

doggonecarl

Countless people have stress in their lives and don't drink. It isn't that stress doesn't bother them, it does. They accept it as a fact of life and deal with it.

Stress isn't going to go away. But the drinking has to. If stress is a trigger, find ways to deal with it. If alcoholism is the trigger, find ways to deal with that.

Good luck.

Fdm

Went to the bank and made a loan to pay off and close all of my credit cards this morning after seeing the chiropractor for my morning visit.

I'll pay off the debt in a few months, and this alone makes things a bit simpler. I just cut all of the cards up too.

So, I poured the beer out and it cut up the cards. I also heard that my grandfather has passes the swallow test required to keep him off the feeding tube.

So far, so good. Let's hope my back get straightened out this evening!

LoftyIdeals

Those are great steps forward, fdm. Welcome back!

Zencat

The vast majority of people that I know that have stayed sober are self-motivators. Glad your back on track.

jwaco

Its OK. Keep your head up. I'll pray for you because I know you can do it!!! "Why give up everything for one thing when you can give up one thing and have everything!!!!"

Seasidegirllau

Hey, its just a blip! Keep fighting :-)