Bruno1979

How are the rules with people swapping email addresses and mobile numbers on the forum?

I'm so close to succeeding its unreal.

I have no withdrawrels and whenever I drink I straight away regret it. What is wrong with me?

I amaze myself at times.

Is anybody else at my point? Day 1 again tomorrow. :-(

Sapling

I don't know...But I know a place where you can do it in person.

DoinThis

I'm not sure if that's close Bruno, my drinking pattern went like that for years. All the best tho hun.

Anna

It could be that you still see drinking as an option. Take that option off the table.

You can ask someone you know, via PM, if they would like to give you their email address.

But, there are always people online at any time of the day or night, too.

Bruno1979

Is that the AA sapling?

How did you feel when you first went there?

DisplacedGRITS

I'm doing 90 meetings in 90 days with AA Bruno and am finding it very helpful. I got lots of numbers and got hooked up with a sponsor. Consider giving it a shot. It can't hurt.

hypochondriac

I did that for a good few years, until the withdrawals did kick in. I was still drinking every day though and was basically in an emotional turmoil. It sounds like you need a bit more help, have you thought about AA or read any AVRT stuff?

MarkstheSpot

When you relapsed before http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...d-6-pints.html I asked if you'd told Mrs Bruno. I'd still be interested to know. If you haven't and you're serious about kicking the booze into touch, then it would be a good start.


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Dee74

I agree with DoinThis Bruno
I thought I was *that* close to quitting...for years, y'know?

Maybe Anna's right - you need to take that option off the table?

D

Sapling

Like I was broken in half...Scared for my life...And that I needed some serious help...I met the kindest people I've ever met there...They were just like me..They helped me. I haven't had to drink since. I just did what they did. Now I try and help people that show up...Broken...Scared...Looking for help. Not a bad gig.

DisplacedGRITS

I went to AA terrified, confused and fairly sure that it wasn't for me. I was so wrong. I've found AA to be full of generous, accepting people who have gone through and are going through the same struggles i face. It's like an extended family. Like family, there are a few oddballs but i mostly get along with everyone and have found AA to be an amazing source of support.

GirlFromCO

What DoinThis & D said.

hypochondriac

I think MarkstheSpot has a really good point here.

And when you say you had 5 beers, was that in a pub? With friends or on your tod? If you've got drinking buddies could you tell them you're not drinking... or just avoid them?

There was no way I could go to the pub in the first few weeks and when I do now I make sure I don't hang about there too long.

Otherwise there are AA meetings in Fenton, Hanley and 'castle.

Think about what you're doing now and why it isn't working, then try something else...The definition of madness is doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results.

Hope you keep trying x

Bruno1979

To any newbie on here,

I posted this 9 months ago,

there were plenty more relapses to come after this thread but it can be done.

I can't even believe that this used to be a problem for me. I can't think of anything worse than going into a pub after work to drink now.

There's so much more to be done with life than wasting it drinking.

Have a good evening.

Bruno.

CAPTAINZING2000

We all had to start at day 1 then repeat it every day after that.. Idle hands and a idle mind are the devil's workshop. I joined AA, maybe this is or isn't for you. I do know for myself, staying busy kept my mind from obsessing about a drink.

You have to take the same actions you took towards buying your alcohol and channel them elsewhere.

chainsaw4618

Hey Bruno. I been where you're at sooooo many times. I'm working Day12 here, and I really feel for you now. For so long I've recognized that I have a substantial problem. I go after it with all resolve, only to relapse at some seemingly unpredictable time. I'll be sober for days or weeks, and then for the dumbest excuse I "have a brewsky". That always turns into 6 or 12 "brewskies" in my case. I will observe that a little over a year ago I went for almost 3 months sober. My involvement with SR was extremely helpful at that time. So, here I am again trying to get a control on my habit. I encourage you to stay here and keep working it with us.

Bruno1979

Hey guys,

I'm not at this point now,

This was 9 months ago,

Read my last post before this.

Bruno.

FreeFall

Bruno, this is a cool thread-we can see how far you've come. So glad to hear you're doing well and it's an old thread. Great news!!

There were a lot of day 1's for most of us I bet. It's worth it to keep trying until you get it right

2granddaughters

So how long have you been sober and how did you do it ??

All the best.

Bob R

Bruno1979

It all came to a head in september last year which is our wedding anniversary,

That's when I really knew that it had to come to an end,

A good friend of mine had his big birthday bash in mid october and that was my swansong.

If it hadn't have stopped then I dread to think what would have happened, I was so miserable all of the time, always hungover all day and couldn't remember any of the night times.

At first I toned it down to just having a couple of glasses of wine at weekends with my indian takeaway, it worked but became pointless as I couldn't drive anywhere if needed and I always used to think that if I was going to drink alcohol then I had to do it properly until I was in oblivion.

This is why I like the NA lager so much is I can have a couple of those with my weekend takeaway and still drive and do whatever is needed.

All in all though the world is a lot better place than it was in september 2012.

And it is mainly down to reading this forum.

Bruno.