IndaMiricale

Hello SR friends and family. Well its a freezing winter storm day here, used to be one of my favorite times to go out to the bars. And today I can gladly say USED to be .

For once an alcoholic ,always a alcoholic. I will never be cured. My alcoholism for today is only arrested. And that is the best arrest I ever had LOL. No matter how long I stay sober, if I ever pick up that bottle again, I am like I was dropped off at the finish line. Right were I left it . There is absolutly no exception to this , I have tested several times. All with utter failure. There is no more fun in that bottle for me , those good ol times are long gone. I cant recapture them and I would die quickly trying.

So when I finally ended that life and went into my program , and I learned how bankrupt I was . Not only financially , morally, but most important spiritually. But the love and support of the program and you all here, all that has turned and grown into a lovely faith for myself and the fellow alcoholic as well as I know really can live more by the term "easy does it".

So much more relaxing way to live. Being of that alcoholic mind, I didnt only drink way to much for way to long, I just did everything to much except care for myself. Beating myself down mentally and physically with that . I dont miss the amount of energy I had to put into getting threw the day. I now can truly chairish getting up and going threw it.

Thanks to all, everyone enjoy your weekend and smile cause sobriety looks good on you.

Good love, Inda

sugarbear1

Thanks, India! You write well and keep me inspired!

Purplecatlover

Nice post Inda. I learned I will always be an alcoholic, for my past repeated itself. Binge drinking 13 yrs ago, went to AA. Sobered up for yrs, began to drink socially, holidays, etc. Thought I had control, blamed my previous binges on college, etc.
It only took me 2 yrs to spiral into a complete alcoholic. Stayed there for 3 or so more yrs before I finally took steps to sober up again.
I can not afford to make that mistake again.

IndaMiricale

And just to add , grateful for each day I have. For I can not know how many are left, but so glad I found sobriety before the end.


RIP WH . Rest for the demons are no longer.

Sleep all, and see you tomorrow.

Good love, Inda

neferkamichael

Inda, thanks to SR friends and family I'm 5 months off crack today. Best wishes.