Nice post Inda. I learned I will always be an alcoholic, for my past repeated itself. Binge drinking 13 yrs ago, went to AA. Sobered up for yrs, began to drink socially, holidays, etc. Thought I had control, blamed my previous binges on college, etc.
It only took me 2 yrs to spiral into a complete alcoholic. Stayed there for 3 or so more yrs before I finally took steps to sober up again.
I can not afford to make that mistake again.