MycoolFitz

It a tough day, I'll get over it. Knowing I can read and post really helps. It is my community 24/7 I'm having some emotional health issues that were enhanced by my drinking which was like shooting myself in the head with insanity but getting it out in writing on the forum helps. Moment by moment I make it and will continue to make it. I already feel better. Thanks

OCDDan

I bet people who aren't alcoholic's can have just as many if not more problems as we do, especially boredom, they had to go their entire lifes trying to find something fun to do.

IndaMiricale

Thank you, and ya this place in a joy at 24/7 always open

I love writing also it really takes me out of my own thinking, and that is what I always need.

Together we grow.

GirlFromCO

Hey MCF. I've been reading your posts lately and I feel like I can relate to at least some of what you're going through. Irritability, restlessness, and anger have come up for me as well. I guess I really did use drinking to try to control my feelings. Over time I noticed that my urges to drink were replaced by intense emotions. I would have used that as an opportunity to drink in the past. I try to ride out the feelings like I rode out the cravings in the beginning. I felt a lot of resistance to them at first. Now I try to figure out where they are coming from, and I also recognize that I need to be gentle with myself when I'm feeling stuff. I was brought up thinking that everything had to be perfect all the time, so it's doesn't seem natural to just feel what I'm feeling and not judge or try to fix it (usually "fixing my feelings' meant going into big time denial anyway). I'm at almost 8 months, so we quit around the same time last summer. Hang in there.

mattparadise

Some people here are great. It's a big help sometimes.

Dee74

Hey Fitz

you've been having a run of bad days lately - I'm glad SR is here for you.
Do you have support you can call on in your 'real life' too?

D

MycoolFitz

Thanks doing better, just once in awhile it gets tough but if I remember to breathe once or twice it eases. Read one of my favorite quotes Believe nothing on the faith of traditions,
even though they have been held in honor
for many generations and in diverse places.
Do not believe a thing because many people speak of it.
Do not believe on the faith of the sages of the past.
Do not believe what you yourself have imagined,
persuading yourself that a God inspires you.
Believe nothing on the sole authority of your masters and priests.
After examination, believe what you yourself have tested
and found to be reasonable, and conform your conduct thereto.

I think that is what I'm trying to do in sobriety. You are my family. I breathe sober moment by moment. I'm not a meeting person but will today. Take care all

MycoolFitz

Yes Dee and I am. I just have ages and stages. I'm better already. Thanks

LoftyIdeals

Glad you are feeling better already MyCoolFitz. Hang in there!

StPeteGrad

I used to feel bad for people who had bad problems and didn't drink (non-alcoholic non-drinkers, that is).

Now I feel bad for people that don't have the lessons from recovery.

MycoolFitz

Hopefully I learn every day. Today I learned I should have walked my pup longer