spikeman

I've been doing really well over the past year but it's all gone horribly wrong. The last 2 weeks have gone in a blur of drunkenness and idiocy. I don't know what got me started again. Life was good and things were coming together nicely. My anxiety was controlable and I felt more healthy than I have in years.

Now I'm hung over, have pains in my side and my anxiety is making me quake. I've taken a sick day which isn't good. What the hell happened.

Back to the start.

Hello to all my friends. Just needed to vent. Time for some coffee and a good hard think about things.

Spikeman.

Anna

Hi Spikeman,

What did happen? I hope you can figure it out and find a way to avoid it again.

I'm glad you're back and working on your recovery again.

LexieCat

Sometimes a good hard ACT beats a good hard THINK. This is one of those times.

There's plenty of time to analyze it later, if you can. Lots of times it's just, "I don't know, it just came over me." That's alcoholism.

Have you considered going to AA?

Dee74

Welcome back spikeman
Sorry to hear of your recent struggles tho.

I think Lexies onto something
whats the plan, mate?

D

spikeman

Looks like I'll have to give AA a go. I have the address of the local meeting and the times. I'd prefer to do this myself as I did last time as it gave me confidence, but I'll do whatever it takes. Really bad anxiety right now and hot as hell. Nothing new there then!

Dee74

I think reaching out for help is one of the best things people like us can do, spikeman
Good call

D

instant

Hi Spikeman. Take care of yourself. Go easy with self criticism until you feel better physically, then try to sort out "what happened".

Let us know soon how you get on

miko67

be strong mate ull get through it again. you already have. think of the good things you have done sober and how you as a person can feel.and go again and do the same. we are all behind you.

LexieCat

Doing it "on your own" just to give yourself "confidence" is really sort of nonsensical.

Most people who have mastered any skill (and staying sober is, to some extent at least, a skill) have done so after being taught by someone with more skill than they presently have. That's part of what AA sponsorship is about.

Is someone who becomes a skilled downhill skier or gymnast (think Olympics) less confident because they have had coaching?

coffeenut

Welcome back. Glad you are here.

Ainslie

Hey spikeman

I did it alone for over 2.5 years and have just started going to NA and AA - its really not so bad!!! I thought about it for years, and wish id gone sooner - I feel I would have gotten a lot further in my recovery had I have done so. It has been a very humbling experience - I guess I kind of thought I was above and beyond recovery programs, and I still have issues with the whole higher power thing - I think im somewhat spiritually ********, but its just nice to be in a room with people who really do understand. Go for it, youve got nothing to lose, and in a big city like Perth there will be heaps of different meetings to choose from