I can't believe it's been two years.

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01-19-2011, 02:54 PM

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stark6935

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I can't believe it's been two years.

I've been a member of this forum for two years now, and I still haven't done a damn thing with myself. I've spent the past two years compromising that I could control this addiction. I keep making new guidlines for when I can drink. I keep failing, and going back to drinking daily. I'm tired of it. I'm taking my life back right now.

Just had to get that off my chest.

01-19-2011, 02:58 PM

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Mark75

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3 years

Welcome Back, what are you gonna do differently?

01-19-2011, 03:06 PM

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stark6935

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Hah. OMG 3 years...Well just pile it on I guess.

01-19-2011, 03:14 PM

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Mark75

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It goes fast.

Maybe you've hit bottom?

01-19-2011, 03:23 PM

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I've been here almost three years and just got to a year sober last month. If I can do it, so can you.

01-19-2011, 03:57 PM

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SSIL75

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It took me almost 3 years, too! But I did quit. It's worth it!

01-19-2011, 04:06 PM

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Quote:

Originally Posted by stark6935

Hah. OMG 3 years...Well just pile it on I guess.

If you quit now, you'll have done so in half the time it took me.

01-19-2011, 04:10 PM

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Dee74

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Someone said yesterday 'the best time to plant a tree is 30 years ago. The second best time is today.'

I like that

01-19-2011, 04:12 PM

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DrunkenBasement

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I like that, too, Dee!

01-19-2011, 05:59 PM

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Jeb18

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Hey your not alone.

01-19-2011, 06:47 PM

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Ladyfierce

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I LOVE that, Dee!

01-19-2011, 06:48 PM

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MsCooterBrown

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As long as you are still here..you have the desire..Stay with us. Sometimes relapse is the stepping stone to lasting sobriety!! Keep trying..Everyone has to start somewhere!

01-19-2011, 07:01 PM

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stark6935

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I'm kind of an all or nothing person (self destructive). I just think none of this is better than all of it. I keep trying to set guidelines for my drinking, I follow them for a couple months or something, and then I just go back to drinking every day. In all honesty the biggest thing that scares me is that I'm afraid of getting Diabetes.

01-19-2011, 07:49 PM

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MarieAntoinette

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Stark, I too suffer from the black and white thinking. I know how hard it is to break that pattern. Have you considered therapy at all? I've been resistant to it for years, but I'm giving it another shot and I think it is helping this time.

01-19-2011, 07:52 PM

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Maryjan

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Absolutely same here...and today, I have been sober 30 days. That's the first step...realizing that despite trying only wine, only weekends, only one drink, only 2 drinks, only good wine...on and on...I always end up at a blackout and I always will. You've reached it...the first day of the rest of your life...congrats!!