I can't believe it's been two years.
 

I've been a member of this forum for two years now, and I still haven't done a damn thing with myself. I've spent the past two years compromising that I could control this addiction. I keep making new guidlines for when I can drink. I keep failing, and going back to drinking daily. I'm tired of it. I'm taking my life back right now.

Just had to get that off my chest.

3 years ;)

Welcome Back, what are you gonna do differently?

Hah. OMG 3 years...Well just pile it on I guess.

It goes fast.

Maybe you've hit bottom?

I've been here almost three years and just got to a year sober last month. If I can do it, so can you.:)

It took me almost 3 years, too! But I did quit. It's worth it!

If you quit now, you'll have done so in half the time it took me. :afro:

Someone said yesterday 'the best time to plant a tree is 30 years ago. The second best time is today.'

I like that :)

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I like that, too, Dee!

I LOVE that, Dee!

As long as you are still here..you have the desire..Stay with us. Sometimes relapse is the stepping stone to lasting sobriety!! Keep trying..Everyone has to start somewhere!

I'm kind of an all or nothing person (self destructive). I just think none of this is better than all of it. I keep trying to set guidelines for my drinking, I follow them for a couple months or something, and then I just go back to drinking every day. In all honesty the biggest thing that scares me is that I'm afraid of getting Diabetes.

Stark, I too suffer from the black and white thinking. I know how hard it is to break that pattern. Have you considered therapy at all? I've been resistant to it for years, but I'm giving it another shot and I think it is helping this time.

Absolutely same here...and today, I have been sober 30 days. That's the first step...realizing that despite trying only wine, only weekends, only one drink, only 2 drinks, only good wine...on and on...I always end up at a blackout and I always will. You've reached it...the first day of the rest of your life...congrats!!