Did I act Like That?
Did I act Like That?
Coming up on 4 months Being around alcohol is not something I want to do yet. That keeps me away from some social functions....and thats understandable I would think. Well another reason I discovered on my few sober outings over the years before recovery is .....drunk people get on my damned last nerve!
Do they annoy you? Ever ask yourself "did I act that stupid when I drank"? My answer unfortunately, at least the times I remember is Yes!
Your thoughts?
Do they annoy you? Ever ask yourself "did I act that stupid when I drank"? My answer unfortunately, at least the times I remember is Yes!
Your thoughts?
I used to think I couldn't be 'that annoying' cause I did all my drinking at home alone... wrong! I was annoying my kids and annoying myself. My daughter used to tell me how stupid I was getting/had gotten but I never believed it was "that bad". Now that I'm sober I know it was "that bad". Glad I'm not annoying myself anymore.
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As an alcoholic then I find it uncomfortable to be a around people heavily under the influence of alcohol. It truly is the most mind numbing of all drugs, certainly that I ever tried. I have no call to be hanging around in those places anymore. As an alkie myself then I must never forget that alcohol to me is total utter poison.
I find that I never realised how volatile situations and people are when intoxicated. I was oblivious to it when i was drinking myself and it also is somewhat uncomfortable to see how I must have been, as much of my drinking was done in blackout, so I must have been acting like a total drunken idiot.
I used to tell people before I started the session to ignore me if i started acting a little crazy as it was all par for the course of being "bang on it". Only other people who are total f*ckeads will accept and tolerate the repetive behaviour and conversation of someone off their face on booze, coke and Pills. Basically I used to like that identity as being a wild rock n' roll f*ckhead on the sesh but basically I just turned into an alkie passed out in McDonalds at 7.00am to wait for the off-license to reopen and keep warm. It didn;t feel rock n' roll but rather sad. It was OK when the Tennants super hit though, for a brief moment.
What I love now just starting university is that I can build a relationship with people, particualrly girls, and they like me for being myself. They don;t then witness me out drinking and their opinion totally ruined of me. It's nice to know that I don;t have to totally ruin my reputation with new people I meet now. They are nice people and drinking means goodtimes and frivolity. Not so for me, it meant losing interest with all but the hardcore and going back to a flat to take more booze and drugs.
Grateful to be sober
I find that I never realised how volatile situations and people are when intoxicated. I was oblivious to it when i was drinking myself and it also is somewhat uncomfortable to see how I must have been, as much of my drinking was done in blackout, so I must have been acting like a total drunken idiot.
I used to tell people before I started the session to ignore me if i started acting a little crazy as it was all par for the course of being "bang on it". Only other people who are total f*ckeads will accept and tolerate the repetive behaviour and conversation of someone off their face on booze, coke and Pills. Basically I used to like that identity as being a wild rock n' roll f*ckhead on the sesh but basically I just turned into an alkie passed out in McDonalds at 7.00am to wait for the off-license to reopen and keep warm. It didn;t feel rock n' roll but rather sad. It was OK when the Tennants super hit though, for a brief moment.
What I love now just starting university is that I can build a relationship with people, particualrly girls, and they like me for being myself. They don;t then witness me out drinking and their opinion totally ruined of me. It's nice to know that I don;t have to totally ruin my reputation with new people I meet now. They are nice people and drinking means goodtimes and frivolity. Not so for me, it meant losing interest with all but the hardcore and going back to a flat to take more booze and drugs.
Grateful to be sober
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A friend phoned me a couple of days ago and it was pretty obvious she was drunk, it sounded awful, I had never noticed her drunk before because I was always drunk myself.
Gawd, I must have sounded like her many times without realising!
Gawd, I must have sounded like her many times without realising!
I was designated drunk girl.
I joked, laughed, sang, danced, stuck my foot in my mouth, shouted, lied, argued, messed with other peoples' stuff, cried, climbed under parked cars and napped, drunk dialed - you get the picture. Not pretty.
I joked, laughed, sang, danced, stuck my foot in my mouth, shouted, lied, argued, messed with other peoples' stuff, cried, climbed under parked cars and napped, drunk dialed - you get the picture. Not pretty.
I can't even understand why people can stand to watch the Jersey Shore! I have to go to events where there is alcohol a couple times a month...they are beyond tedious...and the smell of booze is nasty.
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