This is so scary
Member
Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: bensalem, PA
Posts: 4
Hi all!
First time here, having made the realization that I too need some help. Like you, Intime, I am scared to death of the path that lies before me in my journey to sobriety. I have no idea what to expect in terms of the physical and mental changes I will go through. I can only hope they are less than the hell I am putting myself through with drinking every night. After waking up (?) this morning drenched in sweat and sweating through most of the morning (what's the use in showering if I continue to sweat through my t-shirt?) and feeling pretty miserable, I actually went to check to see if I had enough booze for tonight. Then, I figured that it was time to get a grip on things and that I need to get some control over this disease. I just hope I am strong enough to do it this time. Reading these posts have helped me believe I can.
Thank you all. Intime, stick with it. I am trying to, just like you.
First time here, having made the realization that I too need some help. Like you, Intime, I am scared to death of the path that lies before me in my journey to sobriety. I have no idea what to expect in terms of the physical and mental changes I will go through. I can only hope they are less than the hell I am putting myself through with drinking every night. After waking up (?) this morning drenched in sweat and sweating through most of the morning (what's the use in showering if I continue to sweat through my t-shirt?) and feeling pretty miserable, I actually went to check to see if I had enough booze for tonight. Then, I figured that it was time to get a grip on things and that I need to get some control over this disease. I just hope I am strong enough to do it this time. Reading these posts have helped me believe I can.
Thank you all. Intime, stick with it. I am trying to, just like you.
Don't resist, allow
Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: South East of England
Posts: 1,521
Hi Dave
You would be welcome at any meeting. The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. The best one for you will be the one that starts next.
There are lots of different types of meetings depending on what is discussed or studied but a "closed" meeting means only people who wish to stop drinking and an "open" meeting means family members or those just curious about giving up drinking ?!! can go along. Regulars may not share so openly at these meetings but it is all good.
If you are experiencing withdrawal symptoms then please see your doctor. You may need some medication to get through withdrawal safely.
Take care.
You would be welcome at any meeting. The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. The best one for you will be the one that starts next.
There are lots of different types of meetings depending on what is discussed or studied but a "closed" meeting means only people who wish to stop drinking and an "open" meeting means family members or those just curious about giving up drinking ?!! can go along. Regulars may not share so openly at these meetings but it is all good.
If you are experiencing withdrawal symptoms then please see your doctor. You may need some medication to get through withdrawal safely.
Take care.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jan 2010
Posts: 15
Goodmorning, as promised I am back. I really did not go far. For those of you that are posting on this and offering advise know that I am taking it all seriously, reading and rereading. You guys are good, I mean you really do see me where I am with this problem and seem to be dialing in the advise accordingly. Again, it is appreicated. I am happy I toke action right away, happy I lived up to my commitment not to drink yesterday and yes I am slowly getting more excited and confident. Arming myself for the inevitable battles to come.
I will be as real as I can with this, I'm not trying to be hard headed I just want to be sure I'm being honest myself and you. I guess I feel that in order to not relapse I need to make this a grass roots effort and not a neon sign flash that quickly burns out.
I am looking forward to my book and still working on a plan. For those of you that do AA, I know it is a great organization that has saved countless people. Just don't if it is for me yet. If I want to sustain this, I do belive I will need some kind of program and will check out the Smart Recovery Tools.
For now, I'll take baby steps. No longer afraid of coming to terms with this, done that already. But I am scared my brain will allow itself to trick it into thinking that a "moderation or controlled" drinking plan will work. In my herart I know it will not, that part I have tried before and only became more frustrated when I was drinking more then I did before "my moderation plan" Yep, you guys have seen it all.....
I will commit myself to another day of no booze. Again thanks, I'll be back
I will be as real as I can with this, I'm not trying to be hard headed I just want to be sure I'm being honest myself and you. I guess I feel that in order to not relapse I need to make this a grass roots effort and not a neon sign flash that quickly burns out.
I am looking forward to my book and still working on a plan. For those of you that do AA, I know it is a great organization that has saved countless people. Just don't if it is for me yet. If I want to sustain this, I do belive I will need some kind of program and will check out the Smart Recovery Tools.
For now, I'll take baby steps. No longer afraid of coming to terms with this, done that already. But I am scared my brain will allow itself to trick it into thinking that a "moderation or controlled" drinking plan will work. In my herart I know it will not, that part I have tried before and only became more frustrated when I was drinking more then I did before "my moderation plan" Yep, you guys have seen it all.....
I will commit myself to another day of no booze. Again thanks, I'll be back
Member
Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: Seattle!
Posts: 211
Hey Intime,
Welcome to SR! Everyone here is super cool, super down, and they have helped me immensely during my recovery. I am glad you are here. Keep posting, I am looking forward to hearing from you again.
Welcome to SR! Everyone here is super cool, super down, and they have helped me immensely during my recovery. I am glad you are here. Keep posting, I am looking forward to hearing from you again.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Jan 2010
Posts: 15
Ok, thanks to all that has offered advise. I feel so much better now and have defiantly come to understand that I to need/have to start my recovery now.
I have joined the Class of January 2010. I will be making a long term commitment there....one day at a time. On day three now and feeling better more confident each hour.
Please come visit us there sometime. THANKS AGAIN!
I have joined the Class of January 2010. I will be making a long term commitment there....one day at a time. On day three now and feeling better more confident each hour.
Please come visit us there sometime. THANKS AGAIN!
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Jan 2010
Posts: 15
Well guys its been awhile since I have been in here. I wanted to let you guys know I attended my first AA meeting today. Guess I will need it after all. It was a very positive experience! Great people. I may go back again tonight. Guess I will need to as I think that will be the only thing keeping me from drinking tonight. If I can just get through today!
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