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Old 12-02-2009, 09:49 PM
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Unhappy Withdrawl vs. Hell?!



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My name is Joe. I actually ran into this forum on a search for this "Pink Cloud". I really need it to start now..... ..
A short a sweet story for ya, I am a 28 yr old husband, father, Son, brother, and Uncle..... I also have chronic severe disabiling pain. In a accident many years ago, I had brain trauma and destroyed my back. In the hospital for months, finally getting out with just a cane! and of course MEDS!
Years and years go by and I dont really take the medications. Seemed to manage ok.... then 7 years after the accident unbareable low back and left leg pain.
Going to my General Practictioner we start me on a Vicoden dose. Just 3 10mg a day. Then we add some Perc for breathrow.... when that didnt work a couple shots of vodka usually kicked it all in gear.
Eventually The meds were not working, and my General Practicioner referred me to a Pain Managemnt specialist.... This is were I was introduce to my New heaven..... Oxycodone! yummy... 30mg 3x daily, I felt like my old highschool self.... no more pain! no more saying "I cant take you to the park baby, my back hurts"... no more missing work. I was in xtc....... short lived, bottle depleted quickly..... made it another month on that dose, and then barely got by two weeks.... doc double the dose 30mg 6x daily, and 20mg methodone for bedtime. perfect dose right? Nope.... Im done, a week early.... and I want to eat nails.... this has been 48hrs of pure hell. A good friend of mine heard I was in a bad way and had gave me a strange looking pill.... beleive suboxone.... I immediatly tossed the bad boy in my mouth... and swallowed it, wich I heard was wrong. I guess I shouldve put it under the tongue.... anyway, I feel not so miserable now. Maybe even welll enough to go back to work.
My friend told me I would just have to suffer another few days and would get a "pink cloud" effect. but this is the relapse time.... Im not worrying about relapsing... I dont by illegal narcs. no matter how bad Im hurting.... I also dont sell Narcs.... I am christian family man. but i really really really really need to feel better... Im need something besides depression and anxiety... and just to be able to sleep... IM soooo miserable! WOW... I am totally venting.... and probably jsut wasted a bunch of peoples life that read this... but honestly.... I feel a little relief... Thanks for listening everyone... God bless.
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Old 12-02-2009, 09:57 PM
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Hi Sandnuka

Go back to your Pain Management guy - be honest and open - and get yourself out of this before you get in too deep. Go see your GP if your PM guy has a waiting list.

Read up in the substance abuse forum here about people who have gone on from where you are now. It's not pretty.

The earlier you stop this the happier you'll be in the long run, Joe

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Old 12-02-2009, 09:58 PM
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Sandnuka - The only thing that I can say is that you really should speak to your doctor and tell him everything that you have posted above. I'm not sure if you are in detox or just mixing drugs, but it can be very dangerous. Please get some professional advice.

I am sorry. Welcome to SR. I hope you get the help you need. Keep posting.
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Old 12-02-2009, 10:10 PM
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Honeslty just got back from my GP an hour ago.... told him everything... I love my doctor.... Well, I failed to mention, I also have an anxiety disorder and still see him for that.... he knows my whole situation, and just told me I needed to talk to my pm doc about a time release med. Something i can take once a day and put down the bottle.... not something I take as needed... obviously I am abusing that policy.... he checked my vitals... said he was astonished how well I was doing considering being off only 48hrs. raised my xanex dose, and sent me on my way. I just want to sleep.
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Old 12-02-2009, 10:16 PM
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newme, Im confused how you dont think I am detoxing????? diaherra, sweating, flu like symptoms, a insane urge to find a lost pill somewhere in my med cabinet.... stomache cramping, and Insomnia..... isnt that detox??? The only drug I have taken in the last 48 hours are xanex, some muscle relaxers for spasms, and the one 8mg suboxone.... wich incredibly has takin almost all my withdrawl. and I just took it.... wow, I gotta read about that drug.
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Stay away from mates bearing prescription pills, Joe.

Do see your PM guy. See what he suggests

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Old 12-02-2009, 10:31 PM
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Originally Posted by sandnuka View Post
newme, Im confused how you dont think I am detoxing????? diaherra, sweating, flu like symptoms, a insane urge to find a lost pill somewhere in my med cabinet.... stomache cramping, and Insomnia..... isnt that detox??? The only drug I have taken in the last 48 hours are xanex, some muscle relaxers for spasms, and the one 8mg suboxone.... wich incredibly has takin almost all my withdrawl. and I just took it.... wow, I gotta read about that drug.
As I am not a doctor, frankly I have absolutely no idea what I am talking about, so you are right to ignore everything I say (except the part about seeing your doctor .. which you did, so we're all good). I am sorry it is rough right now. If it gets worse, call 911. DT's + other medications aren't a good mix.
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Old 12-02-2009, 10:48 PM
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Welcome to SR....
You are useing several different addictive drugs.
None of which I ever used...so I have no de tox
experience or info to share about your situation.

Sorry to know of your situation Joe...
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Old 12-02-2009, 11:03 PM
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I just want to say thanks to all of you guys for those speedy responses.... I really loved everyones advice and support.... this place is giving me that mental boost I needed... since the ol' lady is pissed at me I finished my script a week early... she really isnt there for me..... LOVE YOU GUYS.
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Old 12-05-2009, 02:03 AM
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Just thought I would throw in an update...... day 5, have not touched an opiate! I feel normal I think..... I have been on meds so long I dont know what normal feels like???? is that crazy?????
Well, good things.... Im going to work, Im smiling at funny stuff, Im sleeping almost 5 hours straight! YEAH!
Bad Things..... Im in allot of pain and advil/tylenol are not helping at all, I cant stop thinking about my next refill, Im sadly evening thinking about taking two or three at once when I walk out that pharmacy door... ARRRHHGGGGG!
Definetly no pink cloud yet.
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