Hi.
My name is Joe. I actually ran into this forum on a search for this "Pink Cloud". I really need it to start now.....
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A short a sweet story for ya, I am a 28 yr old husband, father, Son, brother, and Uncle..... I also have chronic severe disabiling pain. In a accident many years ago, I had brain trauma and destroyed my back. In the hospital for months, finally getting out with just a cane! and of course MEDS!
Years and years go by and I dont really take the medications. Seemed to manage ok.... then 7 years after the accident unbareable low back and left leg pain.
Going to my General Practictioner we start me on a Vicoden dose. Just 3 10mg a day. Then we add some Perc for breathrow.... when that didnt work a couple shots of vodka usually kicked it all in gear.
Eventually The meds were not working, and my General Practicioner referred me to a Pain Managemnt specialist.... This is were I was introduce to my New heaven..... Oxycodone! yummy... 30mg 3x daily, I felt like my old highschool self.... no more pain! no more saying "I cant take you to the park baby, my back hurts"... no more missing work. I was in xtc....... short lived, bottle depleted quickly..... made it another month on that dose, and then barely got by two weeks.... doc double the dose 30mg 6x daily, and 20mg methodone for bedtime. perfect dose right? Nope.... Im done, a week early.... and I want to eat nails.... this has been 48hrs of pure hell. A good friend of mine heard I was in a bad way and had gave me a strange looking pill.... beleive suboxone.... I immediatly tossed the bad boy in my mouth... and swallowed it, wich I heard was wrong. I guess I shouldve put it under the tongue.... anyway, I feel not so miserable now. Maybe even welll enough to go back to work.
My friend told me I would just have to suffer another few days and would get a "pink cloud" effect. but this is the relapse time.... Im not worrying about relapsing... I dont by illegal narcs. no matter how bad Im hurting.... I also dont sell Narcs.... I am christian family man. but i really really really really need to feel better... Im need something besides depression and anxiety... and just to be able to sleep... IM soooo miserable! WOW... I am totally venting.... and probably jsut wasted a bunch of peoples life that read this... but honestly.... I feel a little relief... Thanks for listening everyone... God bless.