gerryP

Oh yes VC, I do remember those morning drinks. I used to be dressed and ready for work sitting on the side of the bathtub drink vodka and water. Why on the side of the bathub I have no idea...close to front door?

I remember feeling the lowest of lows, drinking at 7.30 am because of anxiety and fear that I couldn't seem to chase, but as other have said it was the anxiety also from the night before. It was horrific, that feeling that I was going to jump out of my skin until a glass of vodka.

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this VC, but that's when I knew I had to STOP. Too many mornings like that and I knew it wasn't going to change on it's own. I made an appointment with my Dr. and arranged for treatment. Life happenedafter that and continues to happen and will continue to happen, but my head is clear and I've learned to cope with stress and anxiety. The rest is history as they say, 4 years earlier this week.

Best,
G

Richard54

VC my friend here is an alternative for you:

Area 40 - Montana Alcoholics Anonymous Website
888-607-2000

It's kinda obvious we can't do it on our own.

I'm going to a meeting myself this afternoon.

Get to hang around with a bunch of drunks for an hour? Sounds good to me!

Gypsy Feet

I am in a really stressful situation this morning, waiting for my alcoholic (ex)husband to pass out so I can pack my bags and leave my home. The craziest thing is helping me. I have been doing a lot of reading about feelings, and I know they are important now. So instead of trying to numb this stress, I am just acknowledging it and riding it out. The crazy part is, after 28 years of drinking EVERY emotion away, I actually find I "enjoy" feeling even the unpleasant ones. They remind me I am alive.

I think the realization that I had unhealthy thought patterns, and the helpful suggestions on how to tweak my internal dialog has changed my entire life.

Sometimes, we just feel bad/stressed/angry/sad. It passes

Anna

VC,

I am sorry you are in this situation.

You've gotten lots of good advice in this thread. Walking and music really helped me get through those times. We do understand!

brokenhalo

VC,

don't beat yourself up. you can get back on the wagon. the anxiety is painful. for me, i've been trying to do breathing excercises. i didn't have the patience for them initially, but even three minutes of feeling my body as i breathe with my eyes closed calms my nerves substantially. anyway, i hope you feel better. there are alot of people here to give you support.

i wish you the best,

bh

NEOMARXIST

Hey man, I feel for you dude. I've been there and it's pretty rough. I feel great at the moment and full of life and free of impending doom when I wake now. You know why? Because I no-longer drink booze.

One of the main things that keeps me from taking that first drink is that I know that if I do then I will be posting a post identical to this one. A horrible hungover anxiety and depression in which only another beer will seem to fix. Utterly crap feeling that keeps me from picking up again.

Hang in there man and be safe in the knowledge that those beers are only gonna make things worse. Easy to say I know, and I know if I was to start drinking again I wouldn't be thinking or feeling like I am now.

All the best.

brokenhalo

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well said neomarxist.