nickishine

Thanks Snowdog and ToABetterMe!

I've come to realize that "real pain" is "real pain" no matter what causes it! We all have it and have suffered greatly! Nothing in my life was ever as painful for me as losing him! But to honor is life, I need to honor mine! Hence, stay sober and heal! What a journey we are ALL on in this thing call "LIFE", huh?!!!

Snowdog, I'll be waiting for you to check-in with all of us when you return!

Hey everybody.....

"Success is Failure Turned Inside Out"!

Hugs xoxox, Nicki :ghug

snowdog

Well I did it, I managed to make it through lunch with friends and then the service, where they served free wine afterwords (my DOC!) without partaking. I would be lying if I said I didn't think about stopping to pick up a bottle the whole way home. Heck- I am still thinking about it. I am feeling down and out tonight and not quite sure what to do with myself. But I don't want to open up those pleasure pathways again and start all over. Tomorrow will be day 6 for me, my first day 6 since 2001.

Night all-

ToABetterMe

Proud of you!!!
I am having one of the worst nights so far, that I keep having to talk myself out of even thinking about it!

serenityqueen

ViciousCycle

Way to go Snowdog! If you can do it at a stressful time like that, you are well on your way. Great job!

michigangirl

Snowdog.. that is wonderful. :ghug3

KindBird

Way to go snowdog! Big score today with getting through this - you put it out there to this group and we get to celebrate you now!

Fubarcdn

Way to go Sno. I just woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so I came here for the tenth time today and looked at the threads and saw this one first and just had to see how you did. This would have been tough for me and I was so happy that you made it through. Congrats on today. Keep strong.

nickishine

Snowdog!!!!!! WooHooooo, friend!

I got "chills" reading your post! You did GOOD!!!... in such horrific circumstances! Suggestion: write down this experience and how you felt and dealt with it. When alcohol comes creepin' in, no - slammin' in... you have something to see and reflect on of truly the strength you have within. You've got great support and you're not alone combating "the demon" by yourself...

Sooooo Proud of you! Now, as you wake up after-the-fact.... how are you feeling today? Please let us know cuz we're right there with ya!

xoxoxox:ghug

snowdog

Hey all- I am off to a slow start today... slept in, lingered over coffee, journaled. And celebrated the fact I stayed strong yesterday! I am soooo thankful!! I am in kind of a funky mood today but I think it is just post funeral, and day 6 being sober and starting to reflect on things. What it it they say? Your mind is a dangerous neighborhood to travel alone!

Anyway, the good news is, I am more committed than ever to my sobriety. I can't tell you how much I appreciate all of your support. Part of what kept me strong yesterday was my desire to come back to all of you with a positive report. I am so thankful I found this site. I have checked out other recovery sites, but this one is by far the best!!

Thanks everyone!

Fubarcdn

Hang in Snow. We would have welcomed you back with open arms either way but before we gave you any of these:ghug we would have had to give you a couple of these. and just one of these