grateful2b

Hey Scott, just checkin back in on ya, buddy............
The sun is shining here and I'm grateful for that!!
There is a really awesome book floating around out there...A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle......amazing , amazing, transending potential ...at the very least the best book I've come across that impacts anxiety in a profound way...Hope your day is better!!

frstnm

thanks all
I cant wait to see my new pdoc and maybe I can get some relief
I have had to double up on my lorazapam and metioned it to my addictions counselor and he didnt seem to have a problem with that
still broke, not driving or working isolated and my computer is dying
I had it down to the motherboard yesterday and cleaned it out and cant find signs of anything else being wrong
aaarrrgggg
not sure if it just the tedious work of breaking it down, thinking about trying to go back to my old job and possibly losing my mind / sobriety at the same time
I would walk to work but dont really want to go back to the place because the people I work with are a**holes. Any suggestions ? I live in an area that has no public transportation and there arent any jobs in town.

nogard

hey frst, I know you are car less but getting out of the house and being with others in recovery helps me at all times.

Hang in there and as chiy says this too shall pass.

If your phyically well enough maybe working of some kind is a good idea, maybe do a soup run with the Salv Army (helping others, helps us)

Kevin

gypsytears

I would work on myself if it were me. Of course people can be assholes but it's how we deal with them that will determine how much their behavior affects us.

If there were limited employment and less transportation options I'd be working on me in a hurry.

frstnm

yep just working on me
tried a bunch of people to get to a meeting and only one is going and they are already there left them a vm on the same phone (cell) three hours ahead of time
baaaahhhhh..........................

gypsytears

Do you have a bike ?

frstnm

Now that the snow has finally melted Im going to repair the bike.
I know its different for everyone but I wish the depression would go away. From happy for 2 days to depressed for 3 or 4.....argh

Missymae737

Hi Scott,

I am sorry you are struggling and I know how painful depression is...

You have done the right thing in coming here...

Thinking of you...

gypsytears

Hi Scott .

Have you seen a dr for the depression? I don't remember if you said so atm.

frstnm

I hate the doctors they are continously changing meds.
I cant stand it or the emotional roller coaster.
I need to work but where I live there is only my employer that is a dangerous place for me to work atm as they serve drinks all day on fridays and it is a computer/web based company....I dont drive so I am forced to consider going back. I have been on a leave of absense since last April.
I just want to get my tech tools back and quit but am afraid to ask for them.?????
At least I have a couple caring people (not family) that help me, my cat and the program.