Jomey

Hi yall - Just wanted to share this "moment of clarity" that I experienced yesterday. I had a kinda stressful day - nothing major, but enough that in the past, I would have "needed" a drink - and when the kids went to bed, I actually thought about drinking, but in a detached way. Not a craving, not really considering it, but just thinking about how much my thoughts/feelings/behavior has changed since I stopped drinking. I realized last night, that I could drink...if I was willing to suffer all the consequences. And you know what? I thought, I really am sick and tired of being sick and tired and I never want to do that ever again. It was such a strong feeling - I have fought off cravings earlier in my recovery and thought that meant I was sick of drinking and its aftermaths, but this was even a bigger, much more powerful feeling than that. I truly did not want to drink.

I was amazed by the depth of this feeling and by the fact that I didn't even know that I wasn't really all the way there yet, until I arrived. Does that make sense? It gave me a tremendous feeling of hope that there is so much more goodness to be discovered in sobriety, gifts that I don't even know are waiting...

Just wanted to share...I will pray that this brings hope to anyone who is struggling right now...

J

stone

I know exactly what you mean , Jomey.
It's nice isn't it?

Dee74

thanks Jomey

you doing ok without the thanks button ?

LOL
D

Anna

Yes, it's fantastic to have some perspective on the disease!

Alive

i do know...

and i am glad you felt that...i felt that so many times before i could physically make a change..

that's a great reminder, hon...

love ya

Jomey

It's awesome Stone...and no, D, I am in serious withdrawal..serious withdrawal...oh no...I appear to be typing double instead...thanks for the hug, angel-friend. You always cheer me up, even when I'm already happy. Hugs back at ya... love ya, love ya J-J

Jomey

Love ya, too, Karim...thanks for always being here, Anna...it's really great to share the joys and pain of recovery with everyone here.

Dee74

LMAO. Love you too Jomey

D

stone

I hope you get your double-thanks back Jomey!

Jomey

Thanks Stone- oh wait, I mean "Thanks- Thanks" Stone....just don't feel like myself here without it! Hugs, J

Impurrfect

I know how you feel!

Last month, when my uncle died, I thought "I wish something could take this pain away" but I realized I was thinking of it like a "normal" person would think. I wasn't thinking of any drug or alcohol to numb me and really didn't want anything.

It's a great feeling, isn't it?

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

Jomey

Thanks,Amy, for sharing - I am so happy for you that you were able to feel the same things I did - what a blessing! Hugs, J

Astro

Thanks Thanks Jomey! I love reading about your thoughts.

It is amazing to realize that absolutely nothing we go through could be improved by taking another drink.

Hope you continue to have many more moments of clarity!

Jomey

Hi Astro - Thanks-Thanks for the encouragement...I wish some of these "moments of clarity" I'm having would occur when I lose something like the cell phone or the car keys!!!! LMAO! (can't find my smiley face button either, think it disappeared with my thanks-thanks!)

Keep in touch - hope all is well with you! You are an inspiration to me , Hugs, J-J (I'm kinda gettin to like that nickname for my nickname!)

Astro

And I get my daily inspiration from people like you. Life is good, heck it's all good, and I like your nickname too!

Jomey

Thanks, Astro! Things just keepin on gettin better don't they? Best thing is, I've learned lately to appreciate every little grace in my life...like you and other friends here. Hugs, J-J

scaredykat

Hi Jomey, I'm glad your doing well. It is great being sober. I especially love getting up in the mornings now. That's something new for me.

Barb

Jomey

Hey Barb - How are things going for you? I not able to be on here as much as usual right now...catch me up on how things are with you. I love getting up in the morning too...nothing like a beautiful sunrise and not being hung over to enjoy it! J