Sure miss feeling non responsible and fun! - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Go Back   SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information >
Register Blogs FAQ Members List Calendar Arcade Mark Forums Read





Reply
LinkBack Thread Tools
Old 08-02-2007, 02:36 PM   #1 (permalink)
No alcohol in my blood
 
96tears's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Henderson, Nevada
Posts: 50
Cool

Sure miss feeling non responsible and fun!


Well when I use to drink about an hour after taking several shots of Tequila Gold it felt like a big weight of stress was lifting slowly off my back and I could finally relax. Yes the sleep was terrible, yes the hang overs were too, but man o man to have some drinks and put on a Led Zeppelin record was about all I needed to be put in a really good fun loving mood even if my world sucked. Now I really miss those care free moments. But it does seem like the entire universe is much more sober, clean, strict, anal, and all that goes with it. It is hard to fight city hall after a while LOL!
96tears is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 03:27 PM   #2 (permalink)
Old & Sober Member of AA
 
Jersey Nonny's Avatar
 

Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: Nursing Home in Brick, New Jersey
Posts: 5,174
Many years ago, I heard that the letters SOBER stood for Son Of a Bit-- Everything's Real.

Quote:
Now I really miss those care free moments. But it does seem like the entire universe is much more sober, clean, strict, anal, and all that goes with it. It is hard to fight city hall after a while LOL!
I think it's considered "growing up"...maybe since you've
Quote:
been there done that
it's time to try something new.
__________________
He's coming to town... ...via the Polar Express!!!
Jersey Nonny is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 03:46 PM   #3 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Oklahoma
Posts: 66
Quote:
without the tequila!
Tequila is awful anyway. I could drink only one margarita and have a sour stomach all the next day. Hang in there - I bet we all can have care free moments with or without booze...
pointmagnet is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 05:37 PM   #4 (permalink)
Member
 
AcceptingChange's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jun 2007
Posts: 525
yes! that's the same thing i remember too.
that was a wonderful feeling.
music & liquor and solitude. i grew under these conditions.

but i kept trying to get that feeling back.
"The cuervo gold.
the fine columbian.
make tonite a wonderful thing."
It worked for a few years.
But then I found I couldn't achieve the same feeling.

i wish i were 4 shots into Led Zeppelin 1.
but that doesn't work for me any more.
if it did, i'd be on the Drunk & Luving It board.
really. i'd rather die at 70 than 80, if i could have 70 years
of the 1st time buzz every night.

So, since tequila, scotch, becks, columbian stopped
working for me, i had to figure out another way.

i looked around. i saw my uncle, desperate for his j&b.
i saw my mom, desperate for peace.
(my mum was really a gentle soul, caught in the storms of life,
with no compass.)

these two went to alcohol. but looking at it from the outside,
me watching them, was a lot different than the feelings they
were having inside. from the outside (even from someone who
could relate, who wanted them to get high)
i saw how it was a misinterpretation.

I also took a look at Jimmy Page, and Ozzy, and at Eddie V.
Jimmy Page hasn't completed much since his glory days
with zeppelin. Eric Clapton too. I really loved cream.
but after that period, i don't listen to any clapton,
even though he put out 20 albums.

Did you see Eddie V's YouTube.com video,
where he unveils his new guitar?
A great example of extended effects of alcohol
on the human mind.
He can't speak, he's scared, his confidence lost,
a rattled collection of nerves and phobias.
This man should be as confident as that teetotaler Ted Nugent.
I think eddie rocks better than ted. but ted is good too.
anyway, looking at the effects of chemical usage,
Ted's abstinence seems to have left him loving life.
Eddie's condition is scary. A brilliant musician, destroyed.
I know of 10 rock & rollers' who died of alcohol by 45.
this legal drug is lethal.

right now, i'm addicted to caffeine. it's lame.
but lame or not, i can't give it up.
stupid addictions. they sure start nice.
i really love it when they are just starting.
(just my opinion. i could be wrong).

Last edited by AcceptingChange; 08-02-2007 at 06:05 PM.
AcceptingChange is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 06:53 PM   #5 (permalink)
Member
 
GlassPrisoner's Avatar
 

Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Murrieta, Ca
Posts: 2,683
*cues Achilles Last Stand....*

Yeah, but waking up the next morning at 4:30 AM with cold sweats and a vague sense of impending doom could only be fixed by....pause.....more alcohol.

I don't miss it. I'm starting to enjoy the little things in life. the things I missed when I was drunk.
__________________
Life Happens
GlassPrisoner is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 07:49 PM   #6 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Dec 2003
Posts: 12,136
When I start to miss those drinking days, I'm on a slippery slope.

Life maybe isn't as sparkly without the drama of alcohol and chaos, but I'll take today over yesterday, hands down.

Any good, fun-loving mood I was in while drinking lasted a verrry short time and then it was off to the races for this drunk! Never mind feeling good! I wanna feel great! Next thing I'm waking up next to a stranger, or on the bathroom floor.

No thanks!
Rowan is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 08:00 PM   #7 (permalink)
Awaiting Email Confirmation
 

Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Worcester
Posts: 789
Still can't hear Zeppelin without a yearning for the past....nobody's fault but mine )-:
mike_mass is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 08:10 PM   #8 (permalink)
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 179,244
Blog Entries: 1
well..dunno I must've quit at the right time
I like being resonsible, I still have loads of fun, and I'm listening to Jethro Tull Stand Up right now, kicking back with a soda, relaxing and it all still sounds good to me !

alcohol doesn't make things fun...it just happened to be around a lotta times it was IMO

D
__________________
Dee74 is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-02-2007, 08:48 PM   #9 (permalink)
Don't get undies in a bunch
 
best's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: South Shore MA
Posts: 7,120
When what I thought was fun was lined up beside the problems my so called fun caused...
Well I guess you could say that the scales came to balance out for me that drinking was not the better option. To say that life sucked around me so I drink... well I also realized that most all my problems were because I drank. I was causing my life to suck around me. Yup... I made the better choice I would say...Sober sure is better.
__________________
* I asked God to spare me pain.
God said "No", Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.


Recovery Related Acronym

B. E. S. T. = Been Enjoying Sobriety Today?
best is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 03:04 AM   #10 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: long island,ny
Posts: 190
hi.....the only thing i can say i miss about not drinking every night is the instant relaxation it brought me at the end of the day..and THAT only lasted until i reached the point of no return.....then the depression would hit me,and i'd end up crying myself to sleep......
As far as the,"fun"....i find i am more sociable and open to people now that i am sober.....i can look people in the eye when i talk to them,without any feelings of shame or feeling,"less than a person"......
So,all in all, this sober life seems to agree with me..
karrotop is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 08:02 AM   #11 (permalink)
let it grow!
 
parentrecovers's Avatar
 

Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: USA
Posts: 15,540
it gets more manageable. hang in there, and stay sober - blessings, k
parentrecovers is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 08:11 AM   #12 (permalink)
No more merlot, more mamma
 
NOMOMERLOTMAMMA's Avatar
 

Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: Hills, Ct
Posts: 2,139
Blog Entries: 36
You'll find that feeling while you are sober..takes some work, but you'll get it. Be patient.

Ah...Led Zep.
__________________
But I always think that the best way to know God is to love many things. ~Vincent van Gogh
NOMOMERLOTMAMMA is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 08:28 AM   #13 (permalink)
the girl can't help it
 
splendra's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: splendraville
Posts: 5,568
Blog Entries: 3
Yea I had fun raising hell and stuff and every now and then I think I want to go and raise hell...however my sensible liver who seems to be the one in charge of such things always votes no and closes the issue without any debate...
__________________
nice has a hisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
splendra is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 09:46 AM   #14 (permalink)
No alcohol in my blood
 
96tears's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Henderson, Nevada
Posts: 50
Been there and done that is so true, but it was so much fun as well. Maybe growing up is just over rated?
96tears is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 09:53 AM   #15 (permalink)
No alcohol in my blood
 
96tears's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Henderson, Nevada
Posts: 50
Quote:
Originally Posted by AcceptingChange View Post
yes! that's the same thing i remember too.
that was a wonderful feeling.
music & liquor and solitude. i grew under these conditions.

but i kept trying to get that feeling back.
"The cuervo gold.
the fine columbian.
make tonite a wonderful thing."
It worked for a few years.
But then I found I couldn't achieve the same feeling.

i wish i were 4 shots into Led Zeppelin 1.
but that doesn't work for me any more.
if it did, i'd be on the Drunk & Luving It board.
really. i'd rather die at 70 than 80, if i could have 70 years
of the 1st time buzz every night.

So, since tequila, scotch, becks, columbian stopped
working for me, i had to figure out another way.

i looked around. i saw my uncle, desperate for his j&b.
i saw my mom, desperate for peace.
(my mum was really a gentle soul, caught in the storms of life,
with no compass.)

these two went to alcohol. but looking at it from the outside,
me watching them, was a lot different than the feelings they
were having inside. from the outside (even from someone who
could relate, who wanted them to get high)
i saw how it was a misinterpretation.

I also took a look at Jimmy Page, and Ozzy, and at Eddie V.
Jimmy Page hasn't completed much since his glory days
with zeppelin. Eric Clapton too. I really loved cream.
but after that period, i don't listen to any clapton,
even though he put out 20 albums.

Did you see Eddie V's YouTube.com video,
where he unveils his new guitar?
A great example of extended effects of alcohol
on the human mind.
He can't speak, he's scared, his confidence lost,
a rattled collection of nerves and phobias.
This man should be as confident as that teetotaler Ted Nugent.
I think eddie rocks better than ted. but ted is good too.
anyway, looking at the effects of chemical usage,
Ted's abstinence seems to have left him loving life.
Eddie's condition is scary. A brilliant musician, destroyed.
I know of 10 rock & rollers' who died of alcohol by 45.
this legal drug is lethal.

right now, i'm addicted to caffeine. it's lame.
but lame or not, i can't give it up.
stupid addictions. they sure start nice.
i really love it when they are just starting.
(just my opinion. i could be wrong).
Thank you for all of the smart words of wisdom and support. You are right the bottom line is that is does destroy you bit by bit and you do feel the mental and physical affects daily.

Thanks again! Mike
96tears is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 09:57 AM   #16 (permalink)
No alcohol in my blood
 
96tears's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Henderson, Nevada
Posts: 50
Quote:
Originally Posted by GlassPrisoner View Post
*cues Achilles Last Stand....*

Yeah, but waking up the next morning at 4:30 AM with cold sweats and a vague sense of impending doom could only be fixed by....pause.....more alcohol.

I don't miss it. I'm starting to enjoy the little things in life. the things I missed when I was drunk.
I hear that! You are right! So right! Thanks!
96tears is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 09:59 AM   #17 (permalink)
No alcohol in my blood
 
96tears's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Henderson, Nevada
Posts: 50
Quote:
Originally Posted by Rowan View Post
When I start to miss those drinking days, I'm on a slippery slope.

Life maybe isn't as sparkly without the drama of alcohol and chaos, but I'll take today over yesterday, hands down.

Any good, fun-loving mood I was in while drinking lasted a verrry short time and then it was off to the races for this drunk! Never mind feeling good! I wanna feel great! Next thing I'm waking up next to a stranger, or on the bathroom floor.

No thanks!
I hear ya...that is so true, better just to stay clean! Thanks for the back up! I need reminding sometimes lol! ;-)
96tears is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 10:00 AM   #18 (permalink)
No alcohol in my blood
 
96tears's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Henderson, Nevada
Posts: 50
Quote:
Originally Posted by mike_mass View Post
Still can't hear Zeppelin without a yearning for the past....nobody's fault but mine )-:
Ya....I love that song!
96tears is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 08-03-2007, 10:01 AM   #19 (permalink)
No alcohol in my blood
 
96tears's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Henderson, Nevada
Posts: 50
Quote:
Originally Posted by karrotop View Post
hi.....the only thing i can say i miss about not drinking every night is the instant relaxation it brought me at the end of the day..and THAT only lasted until i reached the point of no return.....then the depression would hit me,and i'd end up crying myself to sleep......
As far as the,"fun"....i find i am more sociable and open to people now that i am sober.....i can look people in the eye when i talk to them,without any feelings of shame or feeling,"less than a person"......
So,all in all, this sober life seems to agree with me..
Good points, real good! Thanks!
96tears is offline   Reply With Quote
Reply


Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Thread Tools


Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 11:28 AM.