Originally Posted by AcceptingChange

yes! that's the same thing i remember too.
that was a wonderful feeling.
music & liquor and solitude. i grew under these conditions.

but i kept trying to get that feeling back.
"The cuervo gold.
the fine columbian.
make tonite a wonderful thing."
It worked for a few years.
But then I found I couldn't achieve the same feeling.

i wish i were 4 shots into Led Zeppelin 1.
but that doesn't work for me any more.
if it did, i'd be on the Drunk & Luving It board.
really. i'd rather die at 70 than 80, if i could have 70 years
of the 1st time buzz every night.

So, since tequila, scotch, becks, columbian stopped
working for me, i had to figure out another way.

i looked around. i saw my uncle, desperate for his j&b.
i saw my mom, desperate for peace.
(my mum was really a gentle soul, caught in the storms of life,
with no compass.)

these two went to alcohol. but looking at it from the outside,
me watching them, was a lot different than the feelings they
were having inside. from the outside (even from someone who
could relate, who wanted them to get high)
i saw how it was a misinterpretation.

I also took a look at Jimmy Page, and Ozzy, and at Eddie V.
Jimmy Page hasn't completed much since his glory days
with zeppelin. Eric Clapton too. I really loved cream.
but after that period, i don't listen to any clapton,
even though he put out 20 albums.

Did you see Eddie V's YouTube.com video,
where he unveils his new guitar?
A great example of extended effects of alcohol
on the human mind.
He can't speak, he's scared, his confidence lost,
a rattled collection of nerves and phobias.
This man should be as confident as that teetotaler Ted Nugent.
I think eddie rocks better than ted. but ted is good too.
anyway, looking at the effects of chemical usage,
Ted's abstinence seems to have left him loving life.
Eddie's condition is scary. A brilliant musician, destroyed.
I know of 10 rock & rollers' who died of alcohol by 45.
this legal drug is lethal.

right now, i'm addicted to caffeine. it's lame.
but lame or not, i can't give it up.
stupid addictions. they sure start nice.
i really love it when they are just starting.
(just my opinion. i could be wrong).