Bottoms Part 3
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
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Just back from a meeting. This is the second time I have come back feeling worse than when I went.
Really lonely and depressed even though I quite enjoyed it at the time. I really wanted to go to the meeting too, I dont know what is going on.
There were 14 people there and 13 people 'shared', guess who was the one who didnt. I was just about to and the group leader called an end to the meeting, ha! I didnt really have anything to say anyway I guess. I get so nervous my mind goes blank. I have talked to most of them one to one and I get on fine with all of them and they are all nice people but talking to a group just freaks me out.
I havent had any major cravings this last week and have been feeling pretty good, why do I feel so sh!t now after going to a meeting that is supposed to help?
Blech!
Really lonely and depressed even though I quite enjoyed it at the time. I really wanted to go to the meeting too, I dont know what is going on.
There were 14 people there and 13 people 'shared', guess who was the one who didnt. I was just about to and the group leader called an end to the meeting, ha! I didnt really have anything to say anyway I guess. I get so nervous my mind goes blank. I have talked to most of them one to one and I get on fine with all of them and they are all nice people but talking to a group just freaks me out.
I havent had any major cravings this last week and have been feeling pretty good, why do I feel so sh!t now after going to a meeting that is supposed to help?
Blech!
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Europe
Posts: 2,411
hey...it's normal to feel crappy, but you don't need to feel that way...it's the system's reaction, once and a while everything seems blurry...but it gets good....sharing is good....but when you're ready i am sure you'll know it's the time....
the first words when you try to share are the hardest...but when you start talking you're gonna see and ask yourself why didn't you talked before...it's a relief to be able to share and open up....
ok...so you know...just for today....
if you feel too nervous watch a movie or something, if you can't sleep....
i know it's kinda early...lol..but just an idea...
the first words when you try to share are the hardest...but when you start talking you're gonna see and ask yourself why didn't you talked before...it's a relief to be able to share and open up....
ok...so you know...just for today....
if you feel too nervous watch a movie or something, if you can't sleep....
i know it's kinda early...lol..but just an idea...
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Join Date: Dec 2003
Posts: 12,136
Hey Stoney, I've felt the same way - crappy after meetings. Rarely now, but it still happens. But in the early days, omg it was horrible. I'd be sitting in the middle of the meeting and all of a sudden I just wanted to leave. I felt so lonely and sad.
I think it's just us getting used to our feelings. So long as we pay attention to our feelings, but don't drink over them, I say hang in there and take good care of yourself as best you can.
And I still get that pounding heart when it comes time for me to share or I am chairing the meeting and need to qualify. I get real nervous! So I say 'I am really nervous so I'll only talk for a minute' - usually I would end up crying during my share. Fecking embarrassing. But these folks understand.
Keep coming back!
xoxox GG
I think it's just us getting used to our feelings. So long as we pay attention to our feelings, but don't drink over them, I say hang in there and take good care of yourself as best you can.
And I still get that pounding heart when it comes time for me to share or I am chairing the meeting and need to qualify. I get real nervous! So I say 'I am really nervous so I'll only talk for a minute' - usually I would end up crying during my share. Fecking embarrassing. But these folks understand.
Keep coming back!
xoxox GG
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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whew you guys travel so much ground in two days !....
I'm back...I made it through...big couple of days full of sobriety testers for ol D but I DID IT.
congrats on 2 weeks Paul...that is awesome !
I'm back...I made it through...big couple of days full of sobriety testers for ol D but I DID IT.
congrats on 2 weeks Paul...that is awesome !
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Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: New Zealand
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Yea - congratulations on those two weeks.
I am worried about you drinking coffee and taking sleeping pills. Can you please stop? Read the book. It's not a good idea. Please?
Low carbs. Low sugar. Drink mostly water. It's all in there.
I am like you at meetings. Everyone seems to share so well and I get all in a panic because everything everyone says means so much to me. I want to write it all down and I have no idea what I am going to say usually. If I get asked, everything goes straight out of my head like someone let a stretched rubber band go.
I have started to enjoy the meetings where I don't share now way more than the group therapy stuff. Listening is goooood and sharing is not to help us - it's to help the others in the room stay sober.
There is this one meeting I go to where everyone seems quite young and cool and they have all this cool sober stuff going on in a little clique. I have never been asked to share at it. Then last time I went, hardly anyone came. It was a nasty cold night. So they asked me to share. I was totally honest about hiring all these alcoholics and the horrible mess I got into. I thought it would be really super embarrassing but everyone thanked me heaps afterwards. I had intended to pass.
Some meetings suck. Life sometimes sucks. People can be nasty. We have to learn a new way to cope with all that now sweet.
Anyhow, enough deep and meaningful gumpf. Good morning! I have to go to sleep now. Big day in Hollywood tomorrow. Watch out credit card!!
xx
I am worried about you drinking coffee and taking sleeping pills. Can you please stop? Read the book. It's not a good idea. Please?
Low carbs. Low sugar. Drink mostly water. It's all in there.
I am like you at meetings. Everyone seems to share so well and I get all in a panic because everything everyone says means so much to me. I want to write it all down and I have no idea what I am going to say usually. If I get asked, everything goes straight out of my head like someone let a stretched rubber band go.
I have started to enjoy the meetings where I don't share now way more than the group therapy stuff. Listening is goooood and sharing is not to help us - it's to help the others in the room stay sober.
There is this one meeting I go to where everyone seems quite young and cool and they have all this cool sober stuff going on in a little clique. I have never been asked to share at it. Then last time I went, hardly anyone came. It was a nasty cold night. So they asked me to share. I was totally honest about hiring all these alcoholics and the horrible mess I got into. I thought it would be really super embarrassing but everyone thanked me heaps afterwards. I had intended to pass.
Some meetings suck. Life sometimes sucks. People can be nasty. We have to learn a new way to cope with all that now sweet.
Anyhow, enough deep and meaningful gumpf. Good morning! I have to go to sleep now. Big day in Hollywood tomorrow. Watch out credit card!!
xx
IO Storm
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Southern California
Posts: 18,436
Stone..here in meetings they ask if anyone has a burning desire at the end...
If they do that..jump right in..and share from the heart..
Remember it is for you..and not to impress anyone..just be honest how ya feel..
And it is a "selfish" program.
Love,
IO
If they do that..jump right in..and share from the heart..
Remember it is for you..and not to impress anyone..just be honest how ya feel..
And it is a "selfish" program.
Love,
IO
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
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Thankyou so much everyone, I was feeling pretty down last night and reading your replies this morning means LOADS to me.
Rowan, its good to know you have felt like that too, I wont be drinking over it dont worry bout that! I really listened to peoples shares and got a lot out of the meeting despite feeling lonely and sad afterwards.
Gypsy-I wont be! I can feel sad and lonely and not drink.
Well done on the self restraint RZ! And thanks.
Thanks IO, hmm what 'books' are these? What is he doing in there? lol
Welcome back Dee!
Hi Steph, thanks hun. I will be avoiding coffee from now on, I remember now why I dont drink it. Sleeping tablets are under glass with a sign saying 'break glass in case of emergency'.
You and Rowan are right, I am still learning how to cope with feeling feelings.
Morning K-pat!
Well, I feel a bit better today even though a filling fell out last night and took half a tooth with it! I have a really sharp point on the tooth now that my tongue cant avoid when I talk, so thash nishe!
Rowan, its good to know you have felt like that too, I wont be drinking over it dont worry bout that! I really listened to peoples shares and got a lot out of the meeting despite feeling lonely and sad afterwards.
Gypsy-I wont be! I can feel sad and lonely and not drink.
Well done on the self restraint RZ! And thanks.
Thanks IO, hmm what 'books' are these? What is he doing in there? lol
Welcome back Dee!
Hi Steph, thanks hun. I will be avoiding coffee from now on, I remember now why I dont drink it. Sleeping tablets are under glass with a sign saying 'break glass in case of emergency'.
You and Rowan are right, I am still learning how to cope with feeling feelings.
Morning K-pat!
Well, I feel a bit better today even though a filling fell out last night and took half a tooth with it! I have a really sharp point on the tooth now that my tongue cant avoid when I talk, so thash nishe!
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Join Date: Nov 2005
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auntie, welc home... ya, the button pushers, glad you didnt let them!
steph, the new improved model, simply awesome... listen to steph stone'y...
yep people can be cruel, like some children in a playyard...
and on that glass, take off the label lol
SS, thats my fave plant... lol
steph, the new improved model, simply awesome... listen to steph stone'y...
yep people can be cruel, like some children in a playyard...
and on that glass, take off the label lol
SS, thats my fave plant... lol
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Join Date: Dec 2003
Posts: 12,136
Thash nishe! Are you gonna get your tooth fixed?
I'm glad you're not gonna be drinkin anymore coffee - you were wound like a banjo!
IO - love the graphics for the shirt lol - woo! glad they turned out to be garlic! Huge!
I'm glad you're not gonna be drinkin anymore coffee - you were wound like a banjo!
IO - love the graphics for the shirt lol - woo! glad they turned out to be garlic! Huge!
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