Okay my Tuesday NIght Drinking Buddy
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Okay my Tuesday NIght Drinking Buddy
here at work, just asked me to go tonight.
I emailed her and said I couldn't, but I really really really want to go.
I know I shouldn't.
Rob will be home waiting for me. Probably with dinner and he is doing so well.
I was doing just fine until she asked.
I told her this morning that I wasn't going to drink anymore and that I'd maybe join the YMCA and we could work out on Tuesday's instead of Drinking. She said great. She goes to AA sometimes too. We both talk about how we drink too much while we drink.
Anyway.
She sent an e-mail that said
YMCA or TGI FRIDAYS for drinks??????
I just said I can't to anywhere tonight, but now I just really want to go.
I can one thing do this.
I've got two hours here yet. By 5:00 I'll probably be telling her yes.
I CAN'T DO IT EVERYONE. I'VE GOT TO GOHOME ROB IS WAITING FOR ME AND I JUST DON'T WANT TO GO. WHY DID SHE ASK ME TO GO WHEN I TOLD HER I WASN'T GOING TO DRINK. I WONDER IF I DO THAT TO PEOPLE TOO.
OH I JUST HATE THIS SH#T. IT GETS ME SUPER MAD.
ALL I HAVE TO DO IS LIE AND SAY I'M WORKING LATE. HE'D BELIEVE ME.
WHY COULDN'T SHE JUST TAKE MY "NOT DRINKING" THAT I TOLD HER THIS MORNING AS A NO.
I'M DEPRESSED NOW. STUPID BEER P#SSES ME OFF
I emailed her and said I couldn't, but I really really really want to go.
I know I shouldn't.
Rob will be home waiting for me. Probably with dinner and he is doing so well.
I was doing just fine until she asked.
I told her this morning that I wasn't going to drink anymore and that I'd maybe join the YMCA and we could work out on Tuesday's instead of Drinking. She said great. She goes to AA sometimes too. We both talk about how we drink too much while we drink.
Anyway.
She sent an e-mail that said
YMCA or TGI FRIDAYS for drinks??????
I just said I can't to anywhere tonight, but now I just really want to go.
I can one thing do this.
I've got two hours here yet. By 5:00 I'll probably be telling her yes.
I CAN'T DO IT EVERYONE. I'VE GOT TO GOHOME ROB IS WAITING FOR ME AND I JUST DON'T WANT TO GO. WHY DID SHE ASK ME TO GO WHEN I TOLD HER I WASN'T GOING TO DRINK. I WONDER IF I DO THAT TO PEOPLE TOO.
OH I JUST HATE THIS SH#T. IT GETS ME SUPER MAD.
ALL I HAVE TO DO IS LIE AND SAY I'M WORKING LATE. HE'D BELIEVE ME.
WHY COULDN'T SHE JUST TAKE MY "NOT DRINKING" THAT I TOLD HER THIS MORNING AS A NO.
I'M DEPRESSED NOW. STUPID BEER P#SSES ME OFF
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OK, Rose--you can do it. Just tell her NO, not tonight. Call Rob if you can and tell him what's up, that might just give you the 'oomph' you need to resist.
You will feel so good if you just go home to Rob and the kitties instead. Don't let someone else run your life--do what the best half of YOU wants to do!
I'm thinking of ya, gal! Hang in there!
Jane
You will feel so good if you just go home to Rob and the kitties instead. Don't let someone else run your life--do what the best half of YOU wants to do!
I'm thinking of ya, gal! Hang in there!
Jane
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Well, I already told her no. Its just that all I have to do is change my mind. Just like that. I keep thinking about it now. I hate always thinking about it.
Sometimes I wish I was shaking and freaking out in a bed some where going through the worse of the withdrawals so I could only think about getting past that. Instead, I'm just thinking should I should I not should I should I not.
So stupid. I jsut have to go home.
Sometimes I wish I was shaking and freaking out in a bed some where going through the worse of the withdrawals so I could only think about getting past that. Instead, I'm just thinking should I should I not should I should I not.
So stupid. I jsut have to go home.
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You can do it Rose. You've come so far.....Just keeping telling yourself the positive things about staying sober. Be positive. Go home and have a relaxing evening, eat dinner, read a book......wake up refreshed remembering everything you did the night before!
hugs!
hugs!
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Rose,
You KNOW you want to stay sober, and to see how much better you are going to start feeling... You KNOW you don't want to go out and drink tonight.
Tonight would be a good night to check out a meeting....Call Rob and tell him whats going on...talk to him. Stay here with us. Do ANYTHING except cave in to the voice of addiction. Thats what it is.
The more times you get through this the easier it gets. I promise!
You KNOW you want to stay sober, and to see how much better you are going to start feeling... You KNOW you don't want to go out and drink tonight.
Tonight would be a good night to check out a meeting....Call Rob and tell him whats going on...talk to him. Stay here with us. Do ANYTHING except cave in to the voice of addiction. Thats what it is.
The more times you get through this the easier it gets. I promise!
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I hope your headed home.....
....and if you are have a great night and enjoy dinner and your friends company.
and if your not please come back and talk tomorrow we will all be here for you.
and if your not please come back and talk tomorrow we will all be here for you.
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