I'm Back (part 2)
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
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Thrill - I had no internet for a while. 
Proud of you for reaching 131 days sober !
I'm the worst when it comes to being self-conscious & paranoid. I don't even know where it comes from. I thought drinking helped, but it made me much worse.
Congratulations on the new job - will be thinking of you on Thursday. Birds will miss you.
Proud of you for reaching 131 days sober !I'm the worst when it comes to being self-conscious & paranoid. I don't even know where it comes from. I thought drinking helped, but it made me much worse.
Congratulations on the new job - will be thinking of you on Thursday. Birds will miss you.
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Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: Calgary, Alberta
Posts: 2,339
Hey Thrill, congrats on 131!!! Upward and onward!
I am another one that has struggled with self-esteem, feeling inferior, paranoid about what others thought of me and on and on and on.......
Stay the course, it gets better and you are worth it
I am another one that has struggled with self-esteem, feeling inferior, paranoid about what others thought of me and on and on and on.......
Stay the course, it gets better and you are worth it
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Join Date: Apr 2021
Posts: 522
Congrats on the job 👍 I have been in a bad mood for about a week, trying to give up smoking. It's not working 😐
That's just the way it is in society, people make boring Smalltalk, "what work do you do" "this weather is hot/cold" "did you see the game last night"
Ahh the birds sound cute. Is it a male and female you have? Maybe in the future there will be the rolling of tiny eggs?
131 days, something to be proud of as well as getting a job (which is something to celebrate) And being daddy to 2 😀
That's just the way it is in society, people make boring Smalltalk, "what work do you do" "this weather is hot/cold" "did you see the game last night"
Ahh the birds sound cute. Is it a male and female you have? Maybe in the future there will be the rolling of tiny eggs?
131 days, something to be proud of as well as getting a job (which is something to celebrate) And being daddy to 2 😀
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
Posts: 1,008
Day 132. My social skills are still as bad as a Nintendo game published by LJN. 
Maybe working will help with that. I hope this job lasts longer than Iowa's #2 spot on the college football rankings. I hope I stop making obscure, esoteric jokes that only 5% of people will get and 0% will think is funny. 
Maybe working will help with that. I hope this job lasts longer than Iowa's #2 spot on the college football rankings. I hope I stop making obscure, esoteric jokes that only 5% of people will get and 0% will think is funny.
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Join Date: Apr 2021
Posts: 522
I am part of the 5% 🙂 But then again I'm English and only know Mario and Fortnight on computer games 😆
But a dancing banana never gets old 👍
Hope your little 🐦 are doing well.
Something else that never gets old is seeing you clock up your days every morning when I come on here. Your posts help me when I am having a bit of a hard time, because no matter how you are feeling, you are not drinking and just truck on and helps me do the same
But a dancing banana never gets old 👍
Hope your little 🐦 are doing well.
Something else that never gets old is seeing you clock up your days every morning when I come on here. Your posts help me when I am having a bit of a hard time, because no matter how you are feeling, you are not drinking and just truck on and helps me do the same
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
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Day 133. I start work tomorrow. As I've mentioned before my whole "career" (and I use that term loosely...) I'd been in active addiction. This'll be the first time that I'll be normal and clean at a job. I actually prefer working at 6AM now. When I worked at 6AM in the past I'd be a corpse. 
I was under the influence of all sorts of stuff at work in the past. One time I even OD'd at work and wound up in the hospital. Very unprofessional. 
I better post this before the internet goes out for the 100'th time today. 
I was under the influence of all sorts of stuff at work in the past. One time I even OD'd at work and wound up in the hospital. Very unprofessional. I better post this before the internet goes out for the 100'th time today.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
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Originally Posted by Jupiter11 
I hope things went well Thrill 
I used to get so nervous before a new job I would throw up 😬
Sending you strong stomach vibes 😆
I used to get so nervous before a new job I would throw up 😬
Sending you strong stomach vibes 😆
It went pretty well today. I'm a lot less wrecked than I normally was after a work shift. It's nice walking into the room and being greeted by two little birds. 
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Join Date: Feb 2015
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Day 135. First full shift of work today. I woke up at 4:30 AM and went in at 6 AM. 
Unlike in the past I did not take 12 adderall pills in the morning to wake up. An adequate night's sleep and a couple sodas is all I needed. Not being a hung over corpse was a nice change. 
It'll be a test for my sobriety to see if I can tolerate a crappy job and not resort to numbing.
Unlike in the past I did not take 12 adderall pills in the morning to wake up. An adequate night's sleep and a couple sodas is all I needed. Not being a hung over corpse was a nice change. It'll be a test for my sobriety to see if I can tolerate a crappy job and not resort to numbing.
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