Class of March 2016 Part 74
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Originally Posted by LillianGish 
PJ, I am about to do four months of chemotherapy. My anxiety is high too.
But we can do hard things. Together.
Someone just sent me a text saying I’m about to find out that I’m stronger than I ever imagined. So....I say the same to you.
Courage and patience.
But we can do hard things. Together.
Someone just sent me a text saying I’m about to find out that I’m stronger than I ever imagined. So....I say the same to you.
Courage and patience.
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Hey all! I hit the ground running at work. Just dropped in to say hi.
((Lillian)) Keeping you in my prayers.
((Phx)) Stay in the moment and mindfulness crap. You can do this.
Hugs and happy thoughts, guys!
((Lillian)) Keeping you in my prayers.
((Phx)) Stay in the moment and mindfulness crap. You can do this.
Hugs and happy thoughts, guys!
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Not well Suze. I typed a harsher message of myself this morning but am glad I did not post it. We all know that the struggle is real and it continues. I can't get it through my thick head to do the right things. Lost, but probably not a lost cause. I could find a detox and see it through; I won't because I'm an idiot.
Much love to all. You're rocking it, I'm not.
Much love to all. You're rocking it, I'm not.
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Hey 13 th
I don't want to repeat myself too much. Boring for everyone,
The bottom line is drinkers like us either quit or we die.
I'm still rooting for you to pick the former, someday soon, man
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I don't want to repeat myself too much. Boring for everyone,
The bottom line is drinkers like us either quit or we die.
I'm still rooting for you to pick the former, someday soon, man
D
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Prayers and support 13th- keep posting. We are all in this together.
You are in my thoughts Lill.
Very tired today- just like all week, but I had 2 days of doing not much- so got of my proverbial and did humaning today. Long drive in the hills, shopping, cleaning-interacting. Not enough energy to attack the garden (many of the plants I resurrected from my neighbor who is not returning are in dire need of being replanted).
Oh well, tiredness passes.
Support to all. Watching a cheapie DVD ($5)- about a heavy metal goth vampire...classy, huh?
You are in my thoughts Lill.
Very tired today- just like all week, but I had 2 days of doing not much- so got of my proverbial and did humaning today. Long drive in the hills, shopping, cleaning-interacting. Not enough energy to attack the garden (many of the plants I resurrected from my neighbor who is not returning are in dire need of being replanted).
Oh well, tiredness passes.
Support to all. Watching a cheapie DVD ($5)- about a heavy metal goth vampire...classy, huh?
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So glad to see you're here and posting, 13th.....I've been getting some additional support from SMART ~ chat and online meetings....maybe even a f2f meeting once in a while. I find it helpful to change things up a bit 
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Morning everyone.
I put up my tree last night. My husband is out of town and my youngest is away at school so it was just me and the dogs. What a pain in the butt it was. Definitely wasn't a scene from a Norman Rockwell painting. I knocked the tree over once as I was putting on the lights. I fell off the stool. The dogs wouldn't leave me alone. I kid you not, I was a comedy show. It's done and it's pretty.
13th - hugs man. I know you want this. Wishing you the motivation to put your heels in the sand and say this is the day.
Good morning, BBG and Purple.
Good night, Dee and PHX.
Suze, Lillian and Mita - hope you all have a great day.
I put up my tree last night. My husband is out of town and my youngest is away at school so it was just me and the dogs. What a pain in the butt it was. Definitely wasn't a scene from a Norman Rockwell painting. I knocked the tree over once as I was putting on the lights. I fell off the stool. The dogs wouldn't leave me alone. I kid you not, I was a comedy show. It's done and it's pretty.
13th - hugs man. I know you want this. Wishing you the motivation to put your heels in the sand and say this is the day.
Good morning, BBG and Purple.
Good night, Dee and PHX.
Suze, Lillian and Mita - hope you all have a great day.
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Originally Posted by Thirteenth
Not well Suze. I typed a harsher message of myself this morning but am glad I did not post it. We all know that the struggle is real and it continues. I can't get it through my thick head to do the right things. Lost, but probably not a lost cause. I could find a detox and see it through; I won't because I'm an idiot.
Much love to all. You're rocking it, I'm not.
Much love to all. You're rocking it, I'm not.
Bobbie and other Marchers talked about fear.....maybe it's time to look at that....what might you be afraid of? Because I can't see it being true that life would be more painful for you if you got sober....I truly see doors opening for you that you don't even realise are there.
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You're not a dead horse 13th.
You're not incapable of change either.
I was blunt in the hope that thought might stay with you -not so you'd abandon yourself to your fate
You still have every chance of a long happy and sober life, so long as you act soon.
Venuscat may be onto something, yeah?
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You're not incapable of change either.
I was blunt in the hope that thought might stay with you -not so you'd abandon yourself to your fate
You still have every chance of a long happy and sober life, so long as you act soon.
Venuscat may be onto something, yeah?
D
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Bluntness is fine with me Dee. It's the best course of action most of the time. I was merely agreeing. The fact is I know this yet don't do much about it.
I see it the same way Suze. There's a whole world out there for sober me. Not sober me can't see the forest for the trees. Still, the fear is the thing. I've mentioned it a few times. What am I afraid of you might ask? Probably everything but most especially facing feelings I've long suppressed. Not healthy I know. Drinking of course is even more unhealthy with these issues buried. I've been to multiple therapists over the years but clearly never found the right one. Still trying to get up fortitude to go try that again.
Thank you all for the continued support. Enough about me, I'm such a downer when I get truly honest. I make a much better cheerleader for others.
I see it the same way Suze. There's a whole world out there for sober me. Not sober me can't see the forest for the trees. Still, the fear is the thing. I've mentioned it a few times. What am I afraid of you might ask? Probably everything but most especially facing feelings I've long suppressed. Not healthy I know. Drinking of course is even more unhealthy with these issues buried. I've been to multiple therapists over the years but clearly never found the right one. Still trying to get up fortitude to go try that again.
Thank you all for the continued support. Enough about me, I'm such a downer when I get truly honest. I make a much better cheerleader for others.
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