24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 379
Goodnight everyone- it's been a really hectic day without much time to do anything but go from one thing to another. This day last year I was wasted. I was at the end of a 3 day bender, which started as a relapse after about 4 months of sobriety. I remember I started drinking wine at around 10 am and ended up finding rum in a cabinet (we had just moved states and were staying with my parents) and ended the day drinking beer by afternoon. I was a disgusting mess. My mother came down and asked me why my lips were red (it was from the wine). By evening I was blasting music (hubby asked me to turn it down) and just couldn't stop drinking.
I hope to God that I never forget that day. That I never forget that incessant buzzing in my ear, telling me "just one more- you need one more." I would barely finish the last before going to the next. That out of control feeling of it just not being enough. The hiding of the empty beer bottles (there were so damn many.) And of course the fact that I was the only one drinking (and drunk) in the basement of my parent's house. My little guy was 2, so he won't remember it and my older son was in school for most it. But the shame still lingers, the regret still burns.
But it's over.
Those days are forever over, and for this I am filled with gratitude and love.
I hope to God that I never forget that day. That I never forget that incessant buzzing in my ear, telling me "just one more- you need one more." I would barely finish the last before going to the next. That out of control feeling of it just not being enough. The hiding of the empty beer bottles (there were so damn many.) And of course the fact that I was the only one drinking (and drunk) in the basement of my parent's house. My little guy was 2, so he won't remember it and my older son was in school for most it. But the shame still lingers, the regret still burns.
But it's over.
Those days are forever over, and for this I am filled with gratitude and love.
Thank you darling Sunflowerlife for sharing that....my whole body is tingling weirdly just trying to imagine that....my gosh.....the things we did to ourselves....the things we survived. Onward huh, new day, new life. ♥
Thank you so much SFL -- Although you clearly remember much more of your last drinking episode than I do, the details are similar enough to be very chilling.
Serious congratulations to you for being here where you are today.
Serious congratulations to you for being here where you are today.
♥ This is a list of everyone who posted their commitment to stay sober in the last
24 hours: 10 pm EDT ~ 9.59 pm EDT.
It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us! ♥
1newcreation
5upersonic
abcowboy
Alysheba
aussieblue
Awake61
Babs1234
badgerden
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
Bubovski
Canadian Koala
ChickChick
ChloeRose63
Coldfusion
cornpone
county111111
CrossYourHeart
Daisybelle
Dee74
Delilah1
DonnyB
Endoftheday
erfra7
FormerBeerLover
forstarlights
Gabe1980
gatorman
Gilmer
Goat
goodbyeevan
goose333
Hats
Hevyn
Jack16
joandmelandhan
Jotick
jsm273
julietUK
Kaneda8888
kenton
Kris47
least
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
lyddie
Mags1
martina12
Neoo
Neverthought
Nic233
nmd
PhoenixJ
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
Rainman1
Rar
RedBerryJuniper
Rowlands1
Saskia
shortstop81
Snufkin
soberista
SoberLeigh
stargazer016
Stubbs16
Sunflower79
Sunflowerlife
Sweetpeacan
teaorcoffee
tgirl
TheToddman
theVman31
tomls
turniptheheat
vanaprastha
venuscat
VikingGF
Vinificent
WaterOx
WeaverBird
wiscsober
Yixi
yukonm
Zanna
zeppodog
Onward together! ♥
24 hours: 10 pm EDT ~ 9.59 pm EDT.
It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us! ♥
1newcreation
5upersonic
abcowboy
Alysheba
aussieblue
Awake61
Babs1234
badgerden
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
Bubovski
Canadian Koala
ChickChick
ChloeRose63
Coldfusion
cornpone
county111111
CrossYourHeart
Daisybelle
Dee74
Delilah1
DonnyB
Endoftheday
erfra7
FormerBeerLover
forstarlights
Gabe1980
gatorman
Gilmer
Goat
goodbyeevan
goose333
Hats
Hevyn
Jack16
joandmelandhan
Jotick
jsm273
julietUK
Kaneda8888
kenton
Kris47
least
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
lyddie
Mags1
martina12
Neoo
Neverthought
Nic233
nmd
PhoenixJ
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
Rainman1
Rar
RedBerryJuniper
Rowlands1
Saskia
shortstop81
Snufkin
soberista
SoberLeigh
stargazer016
Stubbs16
Sunflower79
Sunflowerlife
Sweetpeacan
teaorcoffee
tgirl
TheToddman
theVman31
tomls
turniptheheat
vanaprastha
venuscat
VikingGF
Vinificent
WaterOx
WeaverBird
wiscsober
Yixi
yukonm
Zanna
zeppodog
Onward together! ♥
May 3, 2018
Daisybelle ~ 4 weeks! ♥
WaterOx ~ 4 months! ♥
Sunflowerlife ~ 1 year!!!!!!! ♥
Daisybelle ~ 4 weeks! ♥
WaterOx ~ 4 months! ♥
Sunflowerlife ~ 1 year!!!!!!! ♥
It’s sad isn’t it? So happy to have this new and improved way of life. Get some good sleep. Much love Suze...
Those are really sweet words Goat. Thank you so much for that. I am honored to be here with all of you...
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