24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 334
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Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: Houston, TX
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I’m grateful to be sober, and grateful to have my Higher Power running the show. Sometimes (much of the time) I like to run my life, but since getting sober God has become more and more a part of my life. In no way am I a super-saint or holy roller, or some perfect angel, but I am better than I used to be. 24 more.
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: South Bay, So Cal
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Hi all,
Boy, I'm sleepy. But, I like to stay up to "talk" with Mark when he gets off work after Midnight. He is very ready to come home. His 6 Month Contract is up in the beginning of March. He's telling us Ship Life isn't for him as a career. He'd like to work at a job where he can go home at the end of the day. I only see the travel oppty, but the reality is what it IS.
I had 30 Days in a nice Woman's Rehab. Not really too many freedoms, it was hard to live communally . So, I understand our son's decision.
Well, enough of that ..... here to check in for my next 24!
Bobbi
Boy, I'm sleepy. But, I like to stay up to "talk" with Mark when he gets off work after Midnight. He is very ready to come home. His 6 Month Contract is up in the beginning of March. He's telling us Ship Life isn't for him as a career. He'd like to work at a job where he can go home at the end of the day. I only see the travel oppty, but the reality is what it IS.
I had 30 Days in a nice Woman's Rehab. Not really too many freedoms, it was hard to live communally . So, I understand our son's decision.
Well, enough of that ..... here to check in for my next 24!
Bobbi
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Join Date: Apr 2017
Location: England
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Originally Posted by PhoenixJ 
Weav, I do not know if the will help- but I find my recovery to be very hard work. I spent so many year drinking away who I was. Some days I find it hard just going to do shopping. Many of the feelings I have are ambiguous and often filled with self doubts. Along with these doubts come feelings of being a bad person and not worthy of beig happy
I do know enough now- to understand these feelings put me up wit an unnatural default. So dozens of times every day- I do the mindful, in the moment breathing and recoup enough of my self, to wait for these distressing feelings to wash over me- and rescind enough so I keep on going.
It is a start. An adult lifetime of boozing does not offer a miracle elixir for living after just after boozing.
I find counseling- with a psychologist and CBT helps, plus meetings
I do know enough now- to understand these feelings put me up wit an unnatural default. So dozens of times every day- I do the mindful, in the moment breathing and recoup enough of my self, to wait for these distressing feelings to wash over me- and rescind enough so I keep on going.
It is a start. An adult lifetime of boozing does not offer a miracle elixir for living after just after boozing.
I find counseling- with a psychologist and CBT helps, plus meetings
I read what you wrote last night and such a sense of peace came and I just slept. I slept all night. In fact, I’d sleep some more if I didn’t have to get up.
Thank you. You help so many people. I love you
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Perth Western Australia
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Originally Posted by venuscat
January 5, 2018
olyrunner ~ 1 week! ♥
WeaverBird ~ 8 months! ♥
BringingBackB ~ 1 year & 1 month! ♥
Bobbieka ~ 1 year & 7 months! ♥
olyrunner ~ 1 week! ♥
WeaverBird ~ 8 months! ♥
BringingBackB ~ 1 year & 1 month! ♥
Bobbieka ~ 1 year & 7 months! ♥
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Join Date: Apr 2016
Location: UK
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Good morning lovelies.
Weav I'm so glad you found some comfort in PJs post and got some rest last night.
There is indeed an intense vulnerability in early recovery. Almost like being out in public naked. I for one dont really know who I am yet. There's a person slowly coming out but she is damaged and regretful and frightened and, well, lots of other things sometimes many in one day. I suppose that is part of recovery. Finding out what we've got to work with and trying to do our best to evolve into our best selves. I know I've got a long long way to go. Some days I'm eaten up with fear or lethargy or anger. My poor brain just isn't used to coping without it's fix.
The great news is we have eachother. Our sober family and we dont have to do any of this alone.
And of course Weav never firget what you're doing. Saving your life sweetheart. 8 MONTHS SOBER INCLUDING GETTING THROUGH CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR! That's just amazing and I hope you are proud today.
Lots of love Weev and I think I'll join you for another 24 xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Weav I'm so glad you found some comfort in PJs post and got some rest last night.
There is indeed an intense vulnerability in early recovery. Almost like being out in public naked. I for one dont really know who I am yet. There's a person slowly coming out but she is damaged and regretful and frightened and, well, lots of other things sometimes many in one day. I suppose that is part of recovery. Finding out what we've got to work with and trying to do our best to evolve into our best selves. I know I've got a long long way to go. Some days I'm eaten up with fear or lethargy or anger. My poor brain just isn't used to coping without it's fix.
The great news is we have eachother. Our sober family and we dont have to do any of this alone.
And of course Weav never firget what you're doing. Saving your life sweetheart. 8 MONTHS SOBER INCLUDING GETTING THROUGH CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR! That's just amazing and I hope you are proud today.
Lots of love Weev and I think I'll join you for another 24 xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Join Date: Apr 2016
Location: Out in the Stix of Southern Indiana
Posts: 2,784
Sometimes this new thing I found called sobriety is like a new drug, that won't make me sick or feel 3 feet thick! This reality thing is really a trip! Anyway, 24 more hours of it please. Won't you guys join me for a clean one? Thank you all for being here today and have a great day! Congratulations to anyone hitting a milestone today!
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