Class of October 2014 Part 43
. Good one Arbor! Enjoy
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Originally Posted by Arbor 
Sobriety does rock, Leigh. Especially during the holidays. High stress...drinking makes HIGH stress situations even more HIGH stress, even deadly. No thanks. I’ll drink my seltzer.
dear ones!
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Cool link Briar. Such imagination!
Oh I've had fun thinking of the little Arbor lads and Briar's little west coast girl bouncing about this morning.
Have fun if you're traveling Leigh!
Pleasantly stuffed here from a rather large brunch. A bit of cuppa/chill time and then to my mom's to wrap it all up this evening.
I'm already looking forward to tomorrow's gym time.
Wishing each of you the best day.
Oh I've had fun thinking of the little Arbor lads and Briar's little west coast girl bouncing about this morning.
Have fun if you're traveling Leigh!
Pleasantly stuffed here from a rather large brunch. A bit of cuppa/chill time and then to my mom's to wrap it all up this evening.
I'm already looking forward to tomorrow's gym time.
Wishing each of you the best day.
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Greetings, friends! It’s been a very busy week. Husband was away for a few days, so, I was alone baking cookies, and parenting. We spent last evening at my brother’s house, and he was tame. I think I’ve mentioned in the past that his heavy drinking is actually disturbing, and my daughter noticed. So, it was ok this year, but awkward. Choose your friends, not family and all of that.
Today has been relaxing, and we await the roast being done.
I hope all have had a wonderful Christmas, if you celebrate. Thinking of the littles in the Arbor family, and Briar’s little.
Our gift was a hefty scholarship to our daughter’s first choice school. It makes it a real possibility, given good health.
Happy holidays to all celebrating! Much love, Phoebe.
Today has been relaxing, and we await the roast being done.
I hope all have had a wonderful Christmas, if you celebrate. Thinking of the littles in the Arbor family, and Briar’s little.
Our gift was a hefty scholarship to our daughter’s first choice school. It makes it a real possibility, given good health.
Happy holidays to all celebrating! Much love, Phoebe.
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I hope everyone had a very merry Christmas. We had a nice time here. My daughter really enjoyed all the attention and fun stuff she got. I felt better and better as the day went on because I knew it was almost over and I had done almost everything I had intended to do. It was really nice to feel the pressure lift off. Today I feel a lot better, not so overwhelmed. I was so happy that I managed to make scones for breakfast, lemon curd, and bread. I wasn't sure I would be able to do any of that.
Now I have the rest of the week off with my daughter. Today we are going to get her first pedicure. She is very excited, and I am looking forward to getting myself toenails that are not all different Christmas colors. My Christmas sweater dress turned out super obnoxious, which was awesome.
I have to admit to a very strange experience. Christmas eve everyone had wine and it didn't bother me. I even poured the wine for everyone and it was fine. But then after everyone left there was a little bit of wine left in a glass, and I felt like it would be no big deal if I just finished at. I sniffed it and thought about it, and it just didn't register to me what a major mistake it would be to drink it. I wasn't really feeling anything at all. It didn't smell good, and didn't invoke any sort of response. I dumped it out because I decided I had to rely on my better logic in the absence of emotion.
Then on Christmas day, it was the same thing. When everyone left there was about a glass left in a bottle, and it seemed like I could just drink it and it would be no big deal. I couldn't tap into that fear that usually keeps me away from it. I just wasn't feeling anything. I didn't feel like I cared or that anything bad would happen. Again I had to listen to my logic that I knew I shouldn't drink it, and there were important reasons for that, even though I seemed to have forgotten them. So I quickly dumped it out and moved on.
This morning when I woke up, I tried to remember what it felt like to have a hangover. I needed to remind myself of why I don't drink. I remembered the guilt, anxiety, pain, shame, fear. I remembered what it felt like to wake up with swollen hands and a headache and a sour stomach. That would have been horrible.
I'm OK, still on track, but it was a very strange experience. Probably related to how screwed up my emotions and thought processes are right now. Things are quite making sense with my brain chemicals. I am just glad I got through it and I'm still sober today.
Now I have the rest of the week off with my daughter. Today we are going to get her first pedicure. She is very excited, and I am looking forward to getting myself toenails that are not all different Christmas colors. My Christmas sweater dress turned out super obnoxious, which was awesome.
I have to admit to a very strange experience. Christmas eve everyone had wine and it didn't bother me. I even poured the wine for everyone and it was fine. But then after everyone left there was a little bit of wine left in a glass, and I felt like it would be no big deal if I just finished at. I sniffed it and thought about it, and it just didn't register to me what a major mistake it would be to drink it. I wasn't really feeling anything at all. It didn't smell good, and didn't invoke any sort of response. I dumped it out because I decided I had to rely on my better logic in the absence of emotion.
Then on Christmas day, it was the same thing. When everyone left there was about a glass left in a bottle, and it seemed like I could just drink it and it would be no big deal. I couldn't tap into that fear that usually keeps me away from it. I just wasn't feeling anything. I didn't feel like I cared or that anything bad would happen. Again I had to listen to my logic that I knew I shouldn't drink it, and there were important reasons for that, even though I seemed to have forgotten them. So I quickly dumped it out and moved on.
This morning when I woke up, I tried to remember what it felt like to have a hangover. I needed to remind myself of why I don't drink. I remembered the guilt, anxiety, pain, shame, fear. I remembered what it felt like to wake up with swollen hands and a headache and a sour stomach. That would have been horrible.
I'm OK, still on track, but it was a very strange experience. Probably related to how screwed up my emotions and thought processes are right now. Things are quite making sense with my brain chemicals. I am just glad I got through it and I'm still sober today.
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(((Briar))) ♥
I know we are all different, unique, with our own experiences, but I have been through that....I did clean-up a lot for my sister's dinner parties....Oh God I can see that little bit of wine in the bottom of the glass and hear the why not thoughts....see myself standing there with absolutely no emotion.
I have one thought: isn't the AV clever????
I love you.
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I know we are all different, unique, with our own experiences, but I have been through that....I did clean-up a lot for my sister's dinner parties....Oh God I can see that little bit of wine in the bottom of the glass and hear the why not thoughts....see myself standing there with absolutely no emotion.
I have one thought: isn't the AV clever????
I love you.
♥
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Oh I'm so glad you made it through those temptations Briar....and shared your experience with us. For sure I sometimes desire to check out for a while and I'd likely get the desired effect for maybe an hour. But then it'd be so much more than I'd bargained for, an avalanche of repercussions. Good on you for so wisely thinking it through. A good example for me.
Enjoy all the feet stuff with your daughter!
Enjoy all the feet stuff with your daughter!
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