Originally Posted by immri

Hi all, still here and sober, just got through catching up on this thread. Sorry for those struggling or who drank but glad you guys came right back. I'm really stressed at the moment I have so much going on in addition to a cold that means I can't be as productive as I need to be, my brain is just not functioning fast enough. I was incredibly frustrated and upset yesterday which led to the first moment of truly considering to drink. I knew I wouldn't just go to the shops to buy booze, but I also had to ban myself from going out to lunch or basically leaving the house at all. Now I'm so happy I didn't drink and a bit horrified I even considered it. Still in a bad mood today though, I think I'm fine but every tiny thing is bugging me I'm so irritable and definitely going to snap at someone, yikes. I won't drink though.

Originally Posted by Dee74

I'm sure you'll do great Keets Congrats to Bobbie, Applekat, Casey and anyone else hitting a milestone today some people count, other's don't. There are successes and not so great results both ways. I think the best determinate of success will always be don't drink - ever - no matter what. D

Originally Posted by Icarus2

Well world just woke up. 2 hours sleep. No reply to my outreach email. Oh well, back to the grind.

Originally Posted by samantha14

Checking in tonight and feeling good I spent a good part of the afternoon today reading outside - which I haven't done in forever and wow was it relaxing!! This is the first time in a long time when I have had some extended time off and I don't feel like I wasted it drinking and then hungover and then drinking and then hungover.....I actually feel refreshed going back to work tomorrow How is everyone else tonight?

Originally Posted by Icarus2

Me again world. Well as anyone knows- took risk, email to sons, no reply. Felt sick, very bad headache (no pain relief, ever). Lesson? Nothing new. Life is not full of woohoo moments. It is a slow hard long sometimes horrible journey. Full of sadness and loneliness. That is no excuse for me to ever give up on my sons. Regardless of their views of me, I am their dad. I will not abandon my love for them and indeed my responsibility to them. I will always be there dad, waiting (not patiently, damn time) if they change their minds. Hoping USA Labour day (and Canada) is going peacefully and soberly. Ic/pH

Originally Posted by Jemma44

Ic/ph, I'm sorry you haven't heard from your sons. It's hard to be brave and put yourself out there, and then wait, and then...disappointment. You sound good though, like you're living in the moment, dealing with your emotions and looking towards the future and not dwelling on the past. I'm disappointed and sad too. My son's father (my ex) said he would take our son today. No word from him at all. I texted at 2 pm asking if he was going to come, no reply. I texted again (co-dependent behavior on my part I realize now, but I am so angry I could have said a lot worse) i texted, "guess that's a no. Well I'd rather keep him anyway, just was trying to figure out day care for tomorrow." Still no response. Anyway. It's too tiring to feel all the emotions sometimes. My only escape is sleep, which can be elusive. Hopefully you and I both get some rest tonight Ic/ph and anyone else who is struggling. Sleep is so important. Love you all.

Originally Posted by Purplrks3647

OK, Sorry, ....day 1 tomorrow....

Originally Posted by Purplrks3647

OK, Sorry, ....day 1 tomorrow....

Originally Posted by KiKi0615

Well....that's enough posts from me tonight. Going to bed. Sweet dreams and prayers to ALL. Xo

And thank you all for helping me these past few days.