Class of July 2013 Part 18
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After midnight here. Starting day 50. This is only the fourth time I've made it this long, including the 69 days I got back starting in July 2013 here at SR for the first time. Grateful for each and every one of you today. Dead tired after a long night at work. Hope to see you call check in soon!
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You truly are the nicest people.
Well the good news is that I'm nearing the end of day 2 !
Only thanks to you guys . I have read & re read every single message post & have stopped feeling sorry for myself.
Which I have been.
If not for you Dee I would have have a drink .
Yesterday morning I opened that booklet you sent me and I read it over & over.
It just made SO much sense .
I stayed in bed ALL DAY to keep myself out of trouble.
Only thing is , I've upset my daughter as she wanted to see me , but obviously I couldn't let her see my like that.
I woke up , let the animals out , did what they made me do in rehab all those years ago & slept the day away.
Shaun has been given 2 days compassionate leave by my doctor to stay close .
This has really helped .
It's 2.14 in the afternoon & I shall again read Dees booklet & gather strength from it.
You know guys , I really feel strong today. I promise you all , I will NOT drink.
I have work tomorrow so that wil be my 3rd day , then work on Sunday.
My back is feeling a lot better too.
I have NO choice over what's happening with my granddaughter , so for the time being it is what it is.
You can't fix the things you can't change.
Another wise old chick ( croissant ) gave me the idea to get a journal & put all my feelings down for her.
I'll return to doing that every now & then now that I'm sober.
My head is clearer , I'm no longer in that awful fog.
This has been a hiccup , although not a little one , it could have gone badly , I could feel myself sinking lower every day..
I had 2 choices.
1: take the drink that will depress me so badly I would want to die , or die anyway from alcohol.
2: Or want to live & I'm healthier than I've been for a long time. Why do I need to sabotage that.
I dont just gave Ryleigh , I have , Mum , Dad , brothers , sisters , all of you guys , friends , animals , people who I love & love me in return.
I can't let someone else's decision ruin my life.
My boss is an arse , I can deal with that.
The people that really hurt you are the ones you love and vice versa.
I don't even really know what it all is .
But my doc was horrified when he asked me I'd I was keeping up my 100 mg of pristiq ! told him I've been doing alternate days for over 3 months as I felt it was adding to my liver problems.
Amazingly since I've done that , my liver has been mending.
He has since put me on 50 mg every day so I will be taking that religiously .
I love each and every one of you .
Thank you for all your Pms , your phone calls & your love.
I wish I could return it to each of you , I really do.
This is my chance guys and I'm so ready to do this.
I'll read Dees booklet again before I get up to strengthen my conviction.
At long last after all these years I actually DO have a plan .
Thanks very much everyone & I'm right behind you Dave , let's try to support each other cos we know it's not gonna be a picnic. I know I'm gonna have those days too.
I would rather live one day sober than a lifetime drunk ( I read that little gem somewhere once )
My July class , you all know who you are , thank you for everything .
Booklet , then coffee . ee , I love you matey , once again thanks xx
*. 28. Philip Seymour Hoffman died of a drug overdose. He had been sober for several years but accepted a glass of champagne at a wrap party that caused him to completely relapse. **
Oh geez ...do I GET that :-/ poor bugga , that could be any single one of us here .
Life is precious & I want my share xxx
Suze , your phone calls have meant the world to me
Blessings
PS , I do believe I just wrote a novel !!!
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You truly are the nicest people.
Well the good news is that I'm nearing the end of day 2 !
Only thanks to you guys . I have read & re read every single message post & have stopped feeling sorry for myself.
Which I have been.
If not for you Dee I would have have a drink .
Yesterday morning I opened that booklet you sent me and I read it over & over.
It just made SO much sense .
I stayed in bed ALL DAY to keep myself out of trouble.
Only thing is , I've upset my daughter as she wanted to see me , but obviously I couldn't let her see my like that.
I woke up , let the animals out , did what they made me do in rehab all those years ago & slept the day away.
Shaun has been given 2 days compassionate leave by my doctor to stay close .
This has really helped .
It's 2.14 in the afternoon & I shall again read Dees booklet & gather strength from it.
You know guys , I really feel strong today. I promise you all , I will NOT drink.
I have work tomorrow so that wil be my 3rd day , then work on Sunday.
My back is feeling a lot better too.
I have NO choice over what's happening with my granddaughter , so for the time being it is what it is.
You can't fix the things you can't change.
Another wise old chick ( croissant ) gave me the idea to get a journal & put all my feelings down for her.
I'll return to doing that every now & then now that I'm sober.
My head is clearer , I'm no longer in that awful fog.
This has been a hiccup , although not a little one , it could have gone badly , I could feel myself sinking lower every day..
I had 2 choices.
1: take the drink that will depress me so badly I would want to die , or die anyway from alcohol.
2: Or want to live & I'm healthier than I've been for a long time. Why do I need to sabotage that.
I dont just gave Ryleigh , I have , Mum , Dad , brothers , sisters , all of you guys , friends , animals , people who I love & love me in return.
I can't let someone else's decision ruin my life.
My boss is an arse , I can deal with that.
The people that really hurt you are the ones you love and vice versa.
I don't even really know what it all is .
But my doc was horrified when he asked me I'd I was keeping up my 100 mg of pristiq ! told him I've been doing alternate days for over 3 months as I felt it was adding to my liver problems.
Amazingly since I've done that , my liver has been mending.
He has since put me on 50 mg every day so I will be taking that religiously .
I love each and every one of you .
Thank you for all your Pms , your phone calls & your love.
I wish I could return it to each of you , I really do.
This is my chance guys and I'm so ready to do this.
I'll read Dees booklet again before I get up to strengthen my conviction.
At long last after all these years I actually DO have a plan .
Thanks very much everyone & I'm right behind you Dave , let's try to support each other cos we know it's not gonna be a picnic. I know I'm gonna have those days too.
I would rather live one day sober than a lifetime drunk ( I read that little gem somewhere once )
My July class , you all know who you are , thank you for everything .
Booklet , then coffee . ee , I love you matey , once again thanks xx
*. 28. Philip Seymour Hoffman died of a drug overdose. He had been sober for several years but accepted a glass of champagne at a wrap party that caused him to completely relapse. **
Oh geez ...do I GET that :-/ poor bugga , that could be any single one of us here .
Life is precious & I want my share xxx
Suze , your phone calls have meant the world to me
Blessings
PS , I do believe I just wrote a novel !!!
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Hi Wolfyyyy , Hi Casey . I'm so glad you are doing well in your sobriety Casey .
How else is everyone doing ?
What do you have planned for your weekends etc .
Bob some pics of your lovely malamute would be nice.
What do you all have coming up ?
Leshar, darling ...have you thought of going to do some more acting once this treatment has ended. I'd love to see you in that happy place again.
Maybe another holiday to Spain. Get away , live a bit. I'm so very proud of you for not drinking with everything you've had on your plate , it would just exacerbate everything.
Well done lovely xxxx
This is turning into such a wonderful class. So many people ,
We are very lucky indeed to all have each other.
Just remember , after what I just went thru , there is NO shame , embarrassment or judgement from anyone here , at all . Not one person.
Just a willingness to pull us up when down.
We ALL look after each other here .
Humbug , I'd love you to pop in for a hello , I know you're struggling too,
Tell us about your job , your girlfriend , or general chit chat.
Have a great weekend.
I'm sorry if it feels like I'm taking over , but I'm sure you guys understand my need to be here .even half a dozen times a day at the moment.
I just need to be here & keep reading more than anything , not necessarily always posting
Hugs xxxxxx
How else is everyone doing ?
What do you have planned for your weekends etc .
Bob some pics of your lovely malamute would be nice.
What do you all have coming up ?
Leshar, darling ...have you thought of going to do some more acting once this treatment has ended. I'd love to see you in that happy place again.
Maybe another holiday to Spain. Get away , live a bit. I'm so very proud of you for not drinking with everything you've had on your plate , it would just exacerbate everything.
Well done lovely xxxx
This is turning into such a wonderful class. So many people ,
We are very lucky indeed to all have each other.
Just remember , after what I just went thru , there is NO shame , embarrassment or judgement from anyone here , at all . Not one person.
Just a willingness to pull us up when down.
We ALL look after each other here .
Humbug , I'd love you to pop in for a hello , I know you're struggling too,
Tell us about your job , your girlfriend , or general chit chat.
Have a great weekend.
I'm sorry if it feels like I'm taking over , but I'm sure you guys understand my need to be here .even half a dozen times a day at the moment.
I just need to be here & keep reading more than anything , not necessarily always posting
Hugs xxxxxx
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I will see if I can load up some pictures of Leah,Wendy.
Congrats on day 50 Casey!!!
Yesterday was our 21 wedding anniversary.
And today is 23 months since quitting alcohol.
It's been quite a journey. Both in marriage and sobriety.
Everything in life is a learning experience.....everything.
I've learned a lot, and still am.
Tomorrow I plan to work till noon. I know, it's Saturday, but, I need some overtime. Then work in the yard(weather permitting) and hang out in my screen house. I also hope to do a little grilling on the Barbie.
I'm very thankful for my friends here. Longtime and those that have returned.
I hope you are all having a wonderful night/day.
Congrats on day 50 Casey!!!
Yesterday was our 21 wedding anniversary.
And today is 23 months since quitting alcohol.
It's been quite a journey. Both in marriage and sobriety.
Everything in life is a learning experience.....everything.
I've learned a lot, and still am.
Tomorrow I plan to work till noon. I know, it's Saturday, but, I need some overtime. Then work in the yard(weather permitting) and hang out in my screen house. I also hope to do a little grilling on the Barbie.
I'm very thankful for my friends here. Longtime and those that have returned.
I hope you are all having a wonderful night/day.
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Casey, congratulations on 50 days. I really am so happy for you!
I'm so glad you came back to our class and check in often. I've had 3 slips / relapses in the past 2 years. First one was about a week and the other 2 went for a few weeks each. But, I could never have imagined I would have achieved so much sober time when I started in July 2013.
One thing those slips taught me is how fast that crazy thinking comes back. One slip I was suicidal at one point and lost all hope I'd ever tame this beast.
I'm actually reaching a point where I think I'm finally "getting" it. And I hope it sticks. Just because you dropped out of the class way back, doesn't mean you weren't still learning. If anything, I get the feeling that you really want it now and will do what you can to fight this - It's all any of us can do and all we need to conquer this. The willingness to get back up and do whatever work we have to in order to finally have a peaceful and happy life and accepting that taking alcohol out of the equation makes that possible. It's the only way it's possible.
Bit philosophical there, lol....but just woke up and it's Saturday morning. How terrible weekends were drinking, and not relaxing at all!
I love that I even know how to relax now, what calms me down, comforts me and how much a good routine helps too. Feeling very happy at the moment.
Snooz....it was great to see your post last night and I'm so glad you are getting back on track. So true when they say, "just stop drinking", so hard when caught up in the midst of crazy town. I was scared we were gonna lose you, but then again, you are way too smart to let this thing keep going. I'm glad the real Wendy has stood up! Love you.xx
Leshar...what's happening, girl?
Ladybug....hope you get through another week by not drinking. Stay close too....I hate to think of you drinking.xx
Bob...Happy Happy Wedding Anniversary....and happy 23 months! 26 July 2013 is still the day I consider I at least got myself together and admit I had a problem to myself.
Nikki, hunt, Gilmer, Lulu, Humbug, NCG (where are you lady!), I love your little pop ins. Venus you are welcome anytime.
PeteCrab will be getting married in August. Hope we here from him beforehand.
I'm so glad you came back to our class and check in often. I've had 3 slips / relapses in the past 2 years. First one was about a week and the other 2 went for a few weeks each. But, I could never have imagined I would have achieved so much sober time when I started in July 2013.
One thing those slips taught me is how fast that crazy thinking comes back. One slip I was suicidal at one point and lost all hope I'd ever tame this beast.
I'm actually reaching a point where I think I'm finally "getting" it. And I hope it sticks. Just because you dropped out of the class way back, doesn't mean you weren't still learning. If anything, I get the feeling that you really want it now and will do what you can to fight this - It's all any of us can do and all we need to conquer this. The willingness to get back up and do whatever work we have to in order to finally have a peaceful and happy life and accepting that taking alcohol out of the equation makes that possible. It's the only way it's possible.
Bit philosophical there, lol....but just woke up and it's Saturday morning. How terrible weekends were drinking, and not relaxing at all!
I love that I even know how to relax now, what calms me down, comforts me and how much a good routine helps too. Feeling very happy at the moment.
Snooz....it was great to see your post last night and I'm so glad you are getting back on track. So true when they say, "just stop drinking", so hard when caught up in the midst of crazy town. I was scared we were gonna lose you, but then again, you are way too smart to let this thing keep going. I'm glad the real Wendy has stood up! Love you.xx
Leshar...what's happening, girl?
Ladybug....hope you get through another week by not drinking. Stay close too....I hate to think of you drinking.xx
Bob...Happy Happy Wedding Anniversary....and happy 23 months! 26 July 2013 is still the day I consider I at least got myself together and admit I had a problem to myself.
Nikki, hunt, Gilmer, Lulu, Humbug, NCG (where are you lady!), I love your little pop ins. Venus you are welcome anytime.
PeteCrab will be getting married in August. Hope we here from him beforehand.
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Thank you Croissant ~ and good morning. 
Bit cold and cloudy here today in Melbourne, but we are going to get more lovely winter sun over the next few days, so I'm very grateful for that. My part-time job involves walking for hours, and it can be tough in winter.
I love your posts. I'm still thinking about one a few days ago when you talked about your battle with getting your weight to where you want it to be. I really identify with that. Long before I ever picked up a drink, I had a huge problem with food. I was very heavy. And then I actually became a bit anorexic. I was really skinny for a while. In the past two plus years I have gone up and down like a yoyo. After my dad died, I started comfort eating again, and put on a lot of weight. It made me very unhappy. It is a horrible feeling. I am working my way back to a normal healthy weight now. But it's not easy.
I love this ~ very, very true.
Today is 8 months for me (I relapsed last year at almost 19 months. Lost it badly for about 6 weeks there).
Just incredibly grateful to be alive and sober. ♥
Bit cold and cloudy here today in Melbourne, but we are going to get more lovely winter sun over the next few days, so I'm very grateful for that. My part-time job involves walking for hours, and it can be tough in winter.
I love your posts. I'm still thinking about one a few days ago when you talked about your battle with getting your weight to where you want it to be. I really identify with that. Long before I ever picked up a drink, I had a huge problem with food. I was very heavy. And then I actually became a bit anorexic. I was really skinny for a while. In the past two plus years I have gone up and down like a yoyo. After my dad died, I started comfort eating again, and put on a lot of weight. It made me very unhappy. It is a horrible feeling. I am working my way back to a normal healthy weight now. But it's not easy.
The willingness to get back up and do whatever work we have to in order to finally have a peaceful and happy life and accepting that taking alcohol out of the equation makes that possible. It's the only way it's possible.
Today is 8 months for me (I relapsed last year at almost 19 months. Lost it badly for about 6 weeks there).
Just incredibly grateful to be alive and sober. ♥
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