Class of September 2013 - Part 15
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Aargh haven't had time to catch up. This weekend has been insane. I'm finally settling in. Had a chance to grab a drink with a hero of mine, did not go to the bar. (The bar was adjoining the dining room)
I am a bit rattled from an intense experience of having to be "on" and schmooze with people I hold on a pedestal...
More later
Love to all, I'm sorry I have no idea what's going on
Plenny
I am a bit rattled from an intense experience of having to be "on" and schmooze with people I hold on a pedestal...
More later
Love to all, I'm sorry I have no idea what's going on
Plenny
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: LA
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Alright guys, I totally took an ADD pill yesterday. I justified it earlier because I was "studying" with my sponsor, but if I'm starting over based on everything I shared, then I need to start at 1. So, November, 11, 2013:
DAY 1
Done and DONE! Just trying to CONTINUE to be honest with myself...
I think I just shed another caterpillar skin! The growing continues! No more tears, no looking back. Onward and upward!
...Still proud of myself!
DAY 1
Done and DONE! Just trying to CONTINUE to be honest with myself...
I think I just shed another caterpillar skin! The growing continues! No more tears, no looking back. Onward and upward!
...Still proud of myself!
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I admire your honesty Brooksie its a subject that's come up in the rooms of aa quite a bit lately, suppose its anything that fills those holes in our souls that makes living 'easier' to cope with.
Im feeling a bit sorry for myself today, don't know why but im feeling less optimistic and enthusiastic about everything, it will pass I know, just got to dig deep again and get through JUST FOR TODAY.
Sorry for the down talk just need to get it out.
Im feeling a bit sorry for myself today, don't know why but im feeling less optimistic and enthusiastic about everything, it will pass I know, just got to dig deep again and get through JUST FOR TODAY.
Sorry for the down talk just need to get it out.
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Wow a lot to catch up on I switch my phone off for the weekend and a whole book load of pages to read :-)
Br00ksie your honesty is amazing kudos too you.
Renarde hope you had a good sleep on your new mattress.
Welcome Carlos.
Love reading all your posts sorry I can't reply to you all xx
Br00ksie your honesty is amazing kudos too you.
Renarde hope you had a good sleep on your new mattress.
Welcome Carlos.
Love reading all your posts sorry I can't reply to you all xx
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Had a lovely weekend here some anxiety on Saturday afternoon but otherwise one of the best weekends I have had for ages.
Hubby had 2 dates with the woman he wanted to see and hated it bahahaha since then I have been inundated with phone calls which I ignored and texts saying it's the biggest mistake he's ever made I am the only person he can live with blah blah blah. Hense why phone as been off ha!!
Our relationship used to be great best friends but alcohol has taken its toll first his drinking which was like a whirlwind quickly became out of control causing destruction but he just stopped and never looked back. It took me a while to trust him. Mine on the other hand was a slow burner slowly creeping up on me until I finally lost interest in anything and pride in myself far more destructive for us.
Anyways he wants a second chance but I think I need to get me back first before I even think about relationships seriously. I think it's done me a world of good I am doing things now I not done for years due to the depression I was in its kicked me back into living and not just existing. It's still fragile though and I am scared of going backwards so working on me has to be my priority.
Hubby had 2 dates with the woman he wanted to see and hated it bahahaha since then I have been inundated with phone calls which I ignored and texts saying it's the biggest mistake he's ever made I am the only person he can live with blah blah blah. Hense why phone as been off ha!!
Our relationship used to be great best friends but alcohol has taken its toll first his drinking which was like a whirlwind quickly became out of control causing destruction but he just stopped and never looked back. It took me a while to trust him. Mine on the other hand was a slow burner slowly creeping up on me until I finally lost interest in anything and pride in myself far more destructive for us.
Anyways he wants a second chance but I think I need to get me back first before I even think about relationships seriously. I think it's done me a world of good I am doing things now I not done for years due to the depression I was in its kicked me back into living and not just existing. It's still fragile though and I am scared of going backwards so working on me has to be my priority.
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Tallia, I think you're absolutely right! Focus on you and your sobriety. Then things will become clearer and you'll have a good handle on what to do. You still amaze me! 
1step, sorry you're feeling blue today. I hope it will soon pass.
Thanks for letting us know so we can help cheer you up.
Dee, I love the avatar.
Brooksie, I commend you for your honesty and character. You are very strong.
On my way to work--take care, friends.
1step, sorry you're feeling blue today. I hope it will soon pass.
Thanks for letting us know so we can help cheer you up. Dee, I love the avatar.
Brooksie, I commend you for your honesty and character. You are very strong.
On my way to work--take care, friends.
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Hi all. Been hard to post much from my phone and nothing to exiting to day.
Right now, I am having a lovely breakfast alone at our very nice hotel. Husband and kids still asleep and my back was so stiff, I had to get up and move! It is such a treat for this stay home Mom to escape and be served for a nice breakfast. Had a good omelette and the decaf is great!! Better be for the prices here, lol.
I have been reading but out is Hard to past to much from my phone. Tedious. Driving home later. I should be on tonight.
Right now, I am having a lovely breakfast alone at our very nice hotel. Husband and kids still asleep and my back was so stiff, I had to get up and move! It is such a treat for this stay home Mom to escape and be served for a nice breakfast. Had a good omelette and the decaf is great!! Better be for the prices here, lol.
I have been reading but out is Hard to past to much from my phone. Tedious. Driving home later. I should be on tonight.
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Originally Posted by Renarde 
And passing you a tissue for the tears.
Regarding substances, I made it through a whole day today without caffeine. I can't believe it. I'm having some mild withdrawal - nothing like I had when I tried earlier this week.
UI, so are you going to buy a new car?? What make/model do you like? I want a Lexus or a Mercedes in my next life. Husband is gunning for a BMW someday. We had a Lexus but had to sell it to pay for some medical treatment for me years ago when our insurance sucked.
Regarding substances, I made it through a whole day today without caffeine. I can't believe it. I'm having some mild withdrawal - nothing like I had when I tried earlier this week.
UI, so are you going to buy a new car?? What make/model do you like? I want a Lexus or a Mercedes in my next life. Husband is gunning for a BMW someday. We had a Lexus but had to sell it to pay for some medical treatment for me years ago when our insurance sucked.
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Originally Posted by Tallia
Had a lovely weekend here some anxiety on Saturday afternoon but otherwise one of the best weekends I have had for ages.
Hubby had 2 dates with the woman he wanted to see and hated it bahahaha since then I have been inundated with phone calls which I ignored and texts saying it's the biggest mistake he's ever made I am the only person he can live with blah blah blah. Hense why phone as been off ha!!
Our relationship used to be great best friends but alcohol has taken its toll first his drinking which was like a whirlwind quickly became out of control causing destruction but he just stopped and never looked back. It took me a while to trust him. Mine on the other hand was a slow burner slowly creeping up on me until I finally lost interest in anything and pride in myself far more destructive for us.
Anyways he wants a second chance but I think I need to get me back first before I even think about relationships seriously. I think it's done me a world of good I am doing things now I not done for years due to the depression I was in its kicked me back into living and not just existing. It's still fragile though and I am scared of going backwards so working on me has to be my priority.
Hubby had 2 dates with the woman he wanted to see and hated it bahahaha since then I have been inundated with phone calls which I ignored and texts saying it's the biggest mistake he's ever made I am the only person he can live with blah blah blah. Hense why phone as been off ha!!
Our relationship used to be great best friends but alcohol has taken its toll first his drinking which was like a whirlwind quickly became out of control causing destruction but he just stopped and never looked back. It took me a while to trust him. Mine on the other hand was a slow burner slowly creeping up on me until I finally lost interest in anything and pride in myself far more destructive for us.
Anyways he wants a second chance but I think I need to get me back first before I even think about relationships seriously. I think it's done me a world of good I am doing things now I not done for years due to the depression I was in its kicked me back into living and not just existing. It's still fragile though and I am scared of going backwards so working on me has to be my priority.
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Originally Posted by Br00ksie
Alright guys, I totally took an ADD pill yesterday. I justified it earlier because I was "studying" with my sponsor, but if I'm starting over based on everything I shared, then I need to start at 1. So, November, 11, 2013:
DAY 1
Done and DONE! Just trying to CONTINUE to be honest with myself...
I think I just shed another caterpillar skin! The growing continues! No more tears, no looking back. Onward and upward!
...Still proud of myself!
DAY 1
Done and DONE! Just trying to CONTINUE to be honest with myself...
I think I just shed another caterpillar skin! The growing continues! No more tears, no looking back. Onward and upward!
...Still proud of myself!
Also don't sweat the count. I'm on day 11 but I feel fabulous. I'm sure the same will go for you. Yeah, it's day 1, but you have a lot of really good time behind you.
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Okay, tough to keep pace here and with Undies.
BrOOksie, I admire the rigorous honesty. I used pills "as prescribed" actually gateway myself to a relapse with alcohol in past. That after 11.5 years sober. Kudos to you for catching that in advance. I loved your limerick on this subject.
Tallia, thanks for that post on relationships.
Have a productive and meaningful start to the week, S-13's.
Carlos
BrOOksie, I admire the rigorous honesty. I used pills "as prescribed" actually gateway myself to a relapse with alcohol in past. That after 11.5 years sober. Kudos to you for catching that in advance. I loved your limerick on this subject.
Tallia, thanks for that post on relationships.
Have a productive and meaningful start to the week, S-13's.
Carlos
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Originally Posted by FishnHippy
Just a very quick post I will try to catch up later I'm having a bad day my golden retriever had a stroke last night and I'm at the vet with her right now pray for my puppy
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Tallia, I think it's a great idea to give yourself time and space. You deserve that much and more after what he has put you through! I think you take as much time as you need and let him sweat.
UI, keep us posted on the car! Exciting stuff. I read that you feel fabulous and I'm glad to hear it.
Rochele, enjoy that breakfast! Very well deserved!
UI, keep us posted on the car! Exciting stuff. I read that you feel fabulous and I'm glad to hear it.
Rochele, enjoy that breakfast! Very well deserved!
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