Class of September 2013 - Part 13
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Join Date: Aug 2013
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Kelbel, I am so sorry that alcohol has caused such horrific pain and suffering for your family. I am so glad you are here and committed to sobriety.
My childhood was different in that one of my parents is vehemently opposed to alcohol in any fashion. My grandparents were blackout end stage alcoholics and it was horrible. One of my other grandparents was also an alcoholic. One of my mom's siblings is, and so on. With my family history I can actually trace the alcoholics all the way to the 1800's. there have also been alcohol related suicide and arrests in my family too.
Thank you for sharing that with us.
Since my parents were so opposed, I never saw it or had any experience with it until I started binge drinking in high school and college. And I mean binge. I had an eating disorder and I used to binge and purge alcohol all through college. It was so normal to me - drink until you are ready to purge it, then you can keep partying! Then purge it again, and so on. I thought this was normal drinking behavior. I had never seen moderate drinking behavior.
All of the cumulative alcoholic experiences I know of in my family history should teach me to know better. One reason I think I quit when I was functional. I am finally the generation that should put this history and knowledge to use.
Fish, stay safe and come back to us no matter what.
Regarding the snickers and ice cream, yum! Maybe throw some spinach in the blender too, that way you can justify it! Lol
My childhood was different in that one of my parents is vehemently opposed to alcohol in any fashion. My grandparents were blackout end stage alcoholics and it was horrible. One of my other grandparents was also an alcoholic. One of my mom's siblings is, and so on. With my family history I can actually trace the alcoholics all the way to the 1800's. there have also been alcohol related suicide and arrests in my family too.
Thank you for sharing that with us.
Since my parents were so opposed, I never saw it or had any experience with it until I started binge drinking in high school and college. And I mean binge. I had an eating disorder and I used to binge and purge alcohol all through college. It was so normal to me - drink until you are ready to purge it, then you can keep partying! Then purge it again, and so on. I thought this was normal drinking behavior. I had never seen moderate drinking behavior.
All of the cumulative alcoholic experiences I know of in my family history should teach me to know better. One reason I think I quit when I was functional. I am finally the generation that should put this history and knowledge to use.
Fish, stay safe and come back to us no matter what.
Regarding the snickers and ice cream, yum! Maybe throw some spinach in the blender too, that way you can justify it! Lol
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Join Date: Sep 2013
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Originally Posted by madbird 
Fish didn't go and run off to New York did he?
As in "Live, from New York!..."
Never quite sure...
As in "Live, from New York!..."
Never quite sure...
Going to Atlanta for work and I have my app so I will still be aggravating everyone.
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So today was my first long and exhausting work day in a very long time, and when I was getting ready to go home a craving for booze hit me! It's the first one I've had In a while.
On top of that, was so utterly tired (12 hour day today) that I tried to talk myself out of going to a meeting after work to instead go to a restaurant with an alcoholic friend (bad idea!).
The meeting won, but there I ran into Halloween party guy crush tonight! Lots happened there but I don't have the energy to write it tonight!
Will fill u in maņana. Xo goodnight!
On top of that, was so utterly tired (12 hour day today) that I tried to talk myself out of going to a meeting after work to instead go to a restaurant with an alcoholic friend (bad idea!).
The meeting won, but there I ran into Halloween party guy crush tonight! Lots happened there but I don't have the energy to write it tonight!
Will fill u in maņana. Xo goodnight!
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Good morning, have a sober trip to Atlanta Fish!
I think I will buy some snickers bars and ice cream on my way home from work tonight.
This ice cream craze seems contagious LOL!
Uh and happy halloween, it's today right?
I think I will buy some snickers bars and ice cream on my way home from work tonight.
This ice cream craze seems contagious LOL!
Uh and happy halloween, it's today right?
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Originally Posted by kellbell123
Thanks Kane - it is very hard. It adds one more level of complexity to get through. My whole life I watched adults around me getting smashed to have fun. I was taught that you drink to have fun. It's something that is deeply rooted in me.
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Renarde- same here. I was a weekend drinker but then again most people around are. We love our happy hours around here. I blended in well and most people that know me would never suspect I have a problem. I am a good mother, have a good job etc - totally functional. I didn't hit my bottom so to speak. But that doesn't mean I don't have a problem. I had a counselor tell me once 'the bottom is wherever you stop digging'
I knew my family history. I've seen the devastation from addiction. And I knew I had a problem that would only progress.
So I stopped digging. And here I am.
I knew my family history. I've seen the devastation from addiction. And I knew I had a problem that would only progress.
So I stopped digging. And here I am.
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My urges are less frequent and probably a little less powerful but I still get them. I basically drank from 7pm until midnight. My urges tend to kick in around 4pm, anticipating. They aren't every day anymore though. I hate 8-10pm. Not craving but bored. By 10pm I'm happy I didn't drink.
There are still days where I read stuff on here and my AV says my problem is not too bad. Lately I'm seeing people write about passing out in bed from booze and being wide eyed awake by 3am. Because the booze is wearing off? Never happened to me. Slept great until my alarm went off.
I'm excited about Halloween. I work in a non clinical role at hospital and we are having a Halloween for our young patients. I brought some treats to hand out.
There are still days where I read stuff on here and my AV says my problem is not too bad. Lately I'm seeing people write about passing out in bed from booze and being wide eyed awake by 3am. Because the booze is wearing off? Never happened to me. Slept great until my alarm went off.
I'm excited about Halloween. I work in a non clinical role at hospital and we are having a Halloween for our young patients. I brought some treats to hand out.
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