ViciousCycle

Ms. 80 days sober is going to bed. Night everyone!! Morning Dee!

meetmesober

Way to go on 80 VC! Yippppppeeeeeeeeeeee!

Dee74

Happy 80 VC..you too Elvis!
I waited until I was sure this time

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dickensen

VC: Congratulations at 80 days! You are on a roll and a good one at that. Thanks for your posts. I enjoy reading them every day.

stuartp

Cerberus . . . sorry to hear things have gotten a bit stormy for you (terrific ananlogy btw). Keep doing what you've been doing to get this far. And if all else fails - post here ! : ) Hang tough!

DarkAsylum . . .I'm saddened to hear of your loss. I'm glad you have come here for some support. I lost my mother last year and I think of the good memories to get me through sometimes. They will always be a part of us.

For VC, EIAS and the rest of us - keep the sobriety going! It's the only way.

Be strong, be well, be sober!

MrSilver

my new favorite drinks when out in a bar/casino

virgin margarita (lime, strawberry or regular)

cherry coke

tonic with lime

hot chocolate (not always an option)

orange juice

virgin vodka/cranberry

ViciousCycle

Morning all.......Cerb, did not mean to overlook your post and just go on about myself, I hope you will pull out of that cloud soon. I think life comes in waves, some good, some not so good. Hang tough and be proud of yourself. You are doing sooooo awesome!!

So I start that government job on Monday. I have to say I am prepared for it. If I was still drinking I would be dreading it. Dreading that and many other things. Sobriety has given me one huge thing for sure.....calmness. I have lost almost all the anxiety I was carrying around, and boy I had a boatload of it. I have been having some waves of wanting to go home after a full day and pouring a nice glass of wine or twelve.....doh! Exactly..........who the heck do I think I am fooling thinking I will just keep it to one or two? Why unleash that mental torment?? It's easier not to play.

Hey Edward, if you are lurking pop in sometime, we miss you. Ceneri, Vic, wheresthefun...........how are you guys doing?

Have a good Thursday peeps and stay strong!

wheresthefun

Thanks for thinking of me, and the others VC, I am around and fine, very fine in fact, and I suppose I should mention sober too. Just been sticking to being a lurker and a "Thanks" clicker.

Good luck on the job! I'm sure you'll do well.

I check on you all daily, so I guess turnabout is fair play, and I will post from time to time.

ulfr

Thank you all for your support.
We are not doing so good at the moment my mother has been given Valium by her dr and she is taking it in front of me , we know she needs them right now , but years ago she was addicted to them.
Right now she isn't in the state of mind to be without them .
She is only just coping.
I feel that i want the Valium but i cant get my hands on them because my husband is looking after them for my mum.
I know i cant do that my mum needs them right now.

Also cut today because am not coping so well ...i just have to try and cope
Keeping everything in only cried once and that was for a few minutes.

Cerberus

Please hang in there, DarkAsylum. It sounds like things are very tough right now but you are doing the best you can. You really need to focus on making it though. I know it must be hard but try to not worry about your mum - your husband looking after the valium for her is a good idea.

Cerberus

thanks stuart, vc for the kind words. I know I really should post more often because it does make me feel better but I tend to feel like I am whining and feeling sorry for myself so I don't.

I've realized over the past few days though that it is not really a drink that I want. I thought these thoughts in my head were ones saying "take a drink, you know you want to" but really it's that I feel so uncomfortable, I just want to FEEL BETTER. In the past I would do that by drinking but it's so not an option now. I've been depressed before and this is not that - I feel so wound up, almost pressurized and I don't know how to take the edge off. I am distracted, disorganized, restless and just not able to relax. And I actually feel better today than I have in awhile, lol.


I am wishing you the best of luck on Monday, VC! I hope you really enjoy your job.

I, too, wonder where Mr. Ed is at and I am glad to see you here, wheresthefun. I am a big lurker too. I laughed at your "very fine, better mention sober" line. I was wondering for a quick second before I read that line

and Mr. Silver, can we add a ton of whipped cream to that hot chocolate? I am so in then!

take care everyone. I am going to go curl up with some Vampire Diaries (yes, really. my guilty pleasure) talk to you all tomorrow

ElvisInASkirt

This global financial crisis is a bit scary isn't it?

Being abstinent seriously helps as we've no addictions to feed, only ourselves.

Seems we're living in a climate of fear rather and our politicians are melting in the heat.

Dee74

I felt quite grey for a while after quitting...I also felt that pressure cooker feeling...(exercise and doing things & finding a sense of meaning helped me)

Feeling better came for me Cerb - after a while...stick with it.

There's no answer back the way we've come.


I hope you'll stick with it too DarkAsylum - I'm sorry it's such a time of turmoil for you all right now.

best of luck on the new job VC

and yeah - it's getting pretty tough out there Elvis...

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ElvisInASkirt

In the developed world we'll still all be OK compared to many out there.

I remember feeling really down about the economy one Saturday last year and what did I do? I went out and spent £100 at a bar.

Yes. That makes perfect sense.

Dee74

yeh suffering is relative for sure...I was feeling badly done by this morning with aches and pains...went out....saw a little girl 2 or 3 maybe with only one foot....

if she can smile and laugh today, so can I

D

ElvisInASkirt

Very true!

My mum just offered me a Valium as I'm up and it's 2am here. Slept from 7pm to midnight though.

But I declined her offer. Don't feel comfortable taking those things even before flights.

MrSilver

WC is an option. Also, I will drink lemonaid or bottled water when out.

ElvisInASkirt

I'd drink Dr. Pepper if more places served it. Or root beer. Or anything else that's a bit different.

stuartp

Cerb . . . whine away on your posts if it helps. I get as much out of reading about other people's struggles as I don't posting my own (or perhaps more). I think it's hard to see myself in the mirror, but can more easily see when other people hold up the mirror. I've been dealing with some issues with my teenage daughter. It's fascinating to observe her being a child/woman . . . to be able to hold two sets of thoughts within the same conversation. (That is, it's good to observe, when I can step back from the drama : ) But then, I often think that she is only doing the same thing that adults do - but adults are more subtle in this than younger people. For example, to be able to say one principle applies to you but not to me - and if I'm honest, I try doing this more than I care to admit.

DarkA - hang in there. It sounds like your husband is doing the right thing with the valium (although, I'm sure it may not seem that way at the moment).

I also feel those 'antsy, anxious' feelings that I used to hide by picking up. But recently, after being sober for awhile, there is too much happening in life to pass it by drinking, passed out, in a fog or haze. Not all of it is good at all, but it helps the good times seem better.

Happy Friady everyone . . .

Be well, be strong, be sober.

ViciousCycle

Morning guys and gals. Friday!

Bought a tablet last night as I still cannot decide on a laptop. The alienware failed out of the box and now I am gun shy! This thing is pretty cool and will be great on a plane.

Anyone have any plans for this weekend?

I think I may try a round of golf on Sunday morning. I suck, but it will be nice to get out in the early morning......breakfast after....yum.

A few more days of freedom before a schedule comes down on me.........agh!!!

Have a great Friday peeps.

Oh, Stugotz posted a thing about broccoli and booze under new posts........a good read!!