Class of November-Part 10
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Class of November-Part 10
Here is the link for the last one
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-9-a.html
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http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-9-a.html
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Morning all, I've slept late again!! 
I slept really well but I still woke up with every organ aching. Is that normal?
Jason your not! your a good soul that struggles like the rest of us. Please keep posting :ghug
I slept really well but I still woke up with every organ aching. Is that normal?
Jason your not! your a good soul that struggles like the rest of us. Please keep posting :ghug
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good morning all 
aw jason listen to dee he's right on! i truley believe in the insanity that precedes the first drink...it takes a lot of different forms, but one form is thing we are shxt....that can take us down a path to using and other self destructive behaviors...
I think the smart tools on irrational beliefs might help with that.
I suffer from the thoughts that i am **** the destroyer and everything i touch turns to shite, but i have to work my way out of that when it starts to creep in.
:ghug
aw jason listen to dee he's right on! i truley believe in the insanity that precedes the first drink...it takes a lot of different forms, but one form is thing we are shxt....that can take us down a path to using and other self destructive behaviors...
I think the smart tools on irrational beliefs might help with that.
I suffer from the thoughts that i am **** the destroyer and everything i touch turns to shite, but i have to work my way out of that when it starts to creep in.
:ghug
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sorry guys not posting today....
It is interesting how this works...i felt a little too vunerable and scared earlier this week....this lead to acting out of fear and has now settled into sort of an annoying edgyness...feeling i might lash out if i'm not careful
its crzy but i'm having a good week, a good day...but i see these things i said above sorta simmering under the surface....effecting my intereactions some...
I guess thats what taking a look at my self daily does...lets me see what sort of things are bubbling down there and maybe take care of them before they find a crack in the shell and blast out like a volcano....
problem is what to do..sharing it with others, doing my mediation..it keeps it from spilling over too bad, but it isn't solving it...crp i know i know...need to go to a councelor....bleh.....i'll get there
Its the same way with work i keep digging the same hole over and over again...i wish i would grow faster, learn faster, change faster....
All the knowing in the world doesnt' change things...there is something more...Hope? action obviously...i don't know i just don't get it
BUT...I feel pretty dmn fortunate that at this point this stuff doesn't lead me to drinking as an option...yet....
being sober alone isn't enough and yet it is.....one of those paradoxes i have to come to embrace to live my life.
ok....my little mind emptying is done for now.....resume the usual banter plese before i make myself sick lol:ghug
It is interesting how this works...i felt a little too vunerable and scared earlier this week....this lead to acting out of fear and has now settled into sort of an annoying edgyness...feeling i might lash out if i'm not careful
its crzy but i'm having a good week, a good day...but i see these things i said above sorta simmering under the surface....effecting my intereactions some...
I guess thats what taking a look at my self daily does...lets me see what sort of things are bubbling down there and maybe take care of them before they find a crack in the shell and blast out like a volcano....
problem is what to do..sharing it with others, doing my mediation..it keeps it from spilling over too bad, but it isn't solving it...crp i know i know...need to go to a councelor....bleh.....i'll get there
Its the same way with work i keep digging the same hole over and over again...i wish i would grow faster, learn faster, change faster....
All the knowing in the world doesnt' change things...there is something more...Hope? action obviously...i don't know i just don't get it
BUT...I feel pretty dmn fortunate that at this point this stuff doesn't lead me to drinking as an option...yet....
being sober alone isn't enough and yet it is.....one of those paradoxes i have to come to embrace to live my life.
ok....my little mind emptying is done for now.....resume the usual banter plese before i make myself sick lol:ghug
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