Dee74

oh I work a programme
just not one anyone else recognises LOL

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Ananda

you know i'm just pulling your tail dee....ops thats wonkey..pulling your..er...fur???

Hey guys jason won't have any computer accesss for a few days but he's fine...didn't want anyone wondering..he hopes to be up and running thursday

off for coffee and step wrok ...i just made coffee and forgot to put the coffee in it.......gotta zip...

Dee74

thanks for the Jas update nands
hope he gets back real soon

to all
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Pixy1

I'm fed up with my moods

Is this normal? I have snapped at the kids all day

Maybe it's PMT or something (sorry Dee)

What if I stay like this forever?

Pixy1

Anyway I'm off to bed.

Yet another late night and I have work tomorrow.

Night all

:praying for a little change in direction.

Dee74

don't say sorry to me Pix - I don't live with ya LOL
mood swings and irritability are a fairly common thing in the first few weeks, (((Pix)))

it gets better

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Ananda

pix...you know me the emotional bouncing ball


well alot of people settle and stablize after a while, for me it's been a different journey....

I've just learned to ride the waves....but the thoughts and emoitons i have don't have to result in actions or thoughts all the time...mostly they do, but they don't have to...

How i learned to deal with cravings was to know that they pass and they don't last long IF i don't feed them, hang on to them.

Emotions and thoughts are the same for me.

It feels alot like riding a horse for me...i have quite a bit of control especially if I work hard with that horse and learn to be in sink with it....but i never have total control..the horse is bigger and stronger than me and i guess i sit on top of it at it's pleasure so to speak....

My emotions/moods are the same...i have the same realationship with them...I really can't bully them and strong arm them into going where I want, but i can learn to work with them and encourage them to behave in a manner that can be an awsome powerful ride

Not sure that made any sense to anyone else, but thats the visual i have at the moment.

allport

I read a self help book once which used the image of riding an elephant to help you to visualise controlling your subconsious mind lol same deal you cant force an elephant but you can guide it (or trick it) into doing what you want.

I read some rubbish books sometimes but the image did stick with me.

Pixy1

Thaks guys :ghug

Feel a little better this morning and was nicer to the kids before they went to school

I sadly have to go to work now,

Catch up with you all tonight!

Dee74

have a good day all!

off to ride an elephant


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Ananda

morning

Dee74

night

lol

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Pixy1

Good evening

Ananda

ok..just to update you all

My brother started drinking again today.

I'm ok with it at the moment...i mean one thing i've learned at SR is we all walk our own path not only in sobriety, but to get here.

well if i crack and go nuts at some point its somehting you all should know.

Last time he drank i got pretty wacked out of it..but usually i dont

Thanks for letting me tell you (hug)

Pixy1

Nands I'm sorry to here that.

I will catch up with you this evening.

I'm still sober so don't worry (hug)

Very late for work

Dee74

I meant to mention before Nands, but it's been a mad day here....

Sometimes I've wished we could control other journeys - but we can't, and I agree with you...the only way any of us gets to that eureka point is by crawling there ourselves.

but big big hugs anyway

early night for me, gang
bye!


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allport

Aw Nands :ghug make sure to vent on here if you need to.

allport

Hey Pixy well done to us lol we might be able to do this thing after all

Ananda

Pixie girl!!!!!!




I think this might be the longest you've been sober in a long time!!!!!!!!!!

Am i right???

YOur doing great....er..and i think we need to work on that being on time to work thing!

I overslept again

allport

So I finally decide to go our for the day and what happens?

Grey clouds appear from nowhere and the wind is coming from the arctic

I don't really mind it just confirms my view of life

Only joking